I'm Laughing At My Own Jokes

Chapter Thirteen: Journal Entry

So I pulled a couple old journals out and found this gem (picture). This was my first ever book. It only has six pages and ends with the girl getting a true loves kiss and coming back from the dead. Anyway, I also read some diary entries I'd like to share and just like respond to.

"The world is a scary place."

You have no idea, young grasshopper.

"I WANT SOMEONE TO SAVE ME"

Honey, save yourself.

"Every second of everyday, I'm fighting not to break. To not cry. To not die. To live."

There's a quote from Supernatural I would like to share. "Decide to be fine until the end of the week. Make yourself smile, because you're alive and that's your job. And do it again the next week. Do it right, with a smile, or don't do it."

"It's sad when you're do scared of being judged that you push everyone away."

Sorry honey, everyone does that, you're not special.

"I can't believe I'm still alive."

It was your choice sweetheart, you chose not to kill yourself.

"This is killing me

My brain pounds

My heart aches

Everything is falling apart

My grades suck

My parents are on my case

My face is..."

Twelve year old me crossed out whatever I wrote about my face. Okay sweetie, this will all continue for years and years, you'll learn to ignore it and continue to live your life.

These are the short ones. The long ones went into a lot of unnecessary detail. If I could go back to myself in 2013, I would tell myself to just not kill myself. At least grow old enough to go through that puberty and suddenly becomes really hot phase