Rains little secret

5- How could they

THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS MENTIONS OF VERBAL, PHYSICAL ABUSE AND HOMOPHOBIA please be careful and don't read if any of those things may be a problem I know I said rain wasn't trans but he can still like being called pretty girl or wife I think so that's gonna happen sometimes because like why not

Rains POV

I didn't really know how long we had sat there with me in P'payus lap cuddled up but I didn't care this was safe and warm and protected. But I couldn't stay here I had to tell him everything. I promised him I would try but that wasn't enough for me I had to tell him. I wanted to. "Phi I think I'm ready to talk" I said leaning back not getting off his lap but now I was looking at him. He looked at me loving and asked "are you sure?" I just nodded. "When I was 13 I was sleeping over at skys with some friends and they dared me to try on a skirt one of them had brought" I stopped for a moment giving him a moment to decide if he wanted to say something "is that when you figured out you liked it?" I just nodded again it was different than I expected I expected disgust and rejection but instead he seemed loving like he really wanted to know so I continued "I felt really happy but only sky knew so he used to keep a box in the closet at his house for me.." I trailed off knowing what came next.

Payus POV
"I felt really happy but only sky knew so he used to keep a box in the closet at his house for me.." he trailed off and I had a feeling I wouldn't like whatever he said next so I was very careful to make sure my expression and reactions were controlled. "But one day" he began again with a sharp breath in "one day about 7 months later I thought everything was going well but I was wrong my parents wanted me home early and my phone was dead..." He started to sniffle and I had an idea of where this was going I pulled him into my chest "do you want to take a minute baby" it seemed like the nickname helped calm him earlier so I used it again now hoping for the same effect"no I'm okay I- I want to tell you" I let him go so he could look at me again and nodded for him to continue"um I wasn't answering my phone because it was dead so they just came to pick me up...." He took a few seconds and I didn't like this the look he had on hurt I could tell that he wasn't just telling me he was going through it all again in his head. "I guess skys dad told them where we were and they walked in.. on me in a skirt.. I freaked out and tried to hide but..." Tears started to fall as he spoke "but my mom grabbed me and drug me outside she called me a disgusting and worthless and said she wished I hadn't been born" the tears were falling harder now and I was furious. How dare she hurt him like that but I had to keep myself under control. I gently took Rains hand in my own and interlaced our fingers. Waiting for him to be ready to finish. "W-when I got home my dad was so angry and he kept slapping me asking w-here they went wrong for me to end up like this and then he kicked me out and d-disowned me so I went and s-stayed with sky" I couldn't believe that this sweet boy had been through all of that and still managed to smile and comfort other people when they were struggling.

Rains POV

I had spent the last couple of hours imagining how P'Payu would look at me once I had told him but I hadn't imagined the way he was looking at me right now its was an affectionate look with pain and admiration and worry and love all at once. There was not an ounce of the hatred or disgust or repulsion I had been imagining "your so beautiful" was all he said and it was so quiet I wasn't sure it was even supposed to be spoken aloud even so I couldn't help but hug him tightly and cry but this time it was happy and light "Rain I love you and if you want to dress a certain way or change your hair or whatever you choose to do in still gonna love you" he was crying to now. "I love you to Phi"

I have no clue how long this is gonna be but probably at least ten chapters