Rains little secret

2-we have to talk (1/2)

Authors note OMG YOU GUYS SIX PEOPLE HAVE SEEN THIS SO FAR that's a lot more than I expected considering it's still a learning process anyways on to part two! This chapter contains mentions of homophobia and past trauma of rains

Payus POV
It had been about an hour and Rain had slowly calmed down. He was exhausted and his eyes cheeks and nose were all red from crying. I decided he should get some rest before we talked. I looked down and noticed he was one step ahead of me, my sweet boy had fallen asleep. So I gently picked him up and carried him to the bed moving the light grey comforter over him carefully so I dont wake him up. I grab my phone which has a lot of angry texts from my boss and co workers I quickly explain that my boyfriend is sick and I am staying home for the day. They aren't happy but don't press any further. I go downstairs to get some Excedrin and some juice and place it on the table by Rain so he can take it when he wakes up. Then I lay down as well not to sleep I have way to much to think about but just so that I'm with Rain

Rains POV
At first as I slowly wake up I'm happy I can feel Phi's arms around me one around my waist the other playing with my hair gently and for a moment I forgot everything...But only for a moment. Then everything floods back to me and I start to panic I can hear P'Payu say "it's okay sweet boy, breathe" so I try to "in" he instructs and take a Shakey breath in "out" I hear again so I slowly exhale "Your doing so well Rain one more time for me breathe in" another Shakey inhale "now out" another slow exhale"good job Rain I'm so proud of you" he says it and I start to wonder why Im so worried has he ever done anything to make me doubt him. He has already seen things that he could have left me for but instead he helped me like when I broke into the race, or missed the due date on a big assignment,or when I ran away with sky, or when stop had kidnapped me and through all those things he just helped me, Loved me. "W-we should-" "I know" he cut me off "but first there is some Excedrin on the nightstand if you need it and you should at least drink some of the juice so you have something in your system" yeah why was I so worried this wasn't..Them this was P'payu someone who loved me more than anything I sat up and reached over to grab the juice so he wouldn't worry and drank a bit of it.

Payus POV
He reached over and grabbed the cup taking a small sip of it and I felt a bit better I was still worried about him "so.." he started and I knew that he needed me to start the conversation "Sweet boy why did me walking in you have you so scared" he looked at me like that was the last question he expected to hear and his eyes glazed over like he wanted to cry again. So I gently took the glass of juice and set it on the night stand I took Rain who was now sitting up and gently pulled him onto my lap. "It's okay take your time" I said softer than before

Rains POV
"So.." I said hoping he could help me a little because I had no clue what to do and I had to brace myself for the insults and him leaving it was the worst case scenario but it was still possible "sweet boy why did me walking in on you have you so scared" he asked. What? He was worried about why I was scared wasn't it obvious, I remembered all the things they said to me, I'm disgusting. I'm weird. I shouldn't exist. they don't want a freak like me. But I couldn't say that I couldn't say anything so I just looked at him trying to understand. And he must have understand I was at a loss for words because he slowly pulled me into his lap and softly said "it's okay take your time" I took a few minutes but all I could manage to say well it was a combination of a scream and a small sob was "Don't you hate me now"

Payus POV
Rain took a moment and started crying a little more and I decided it was best not to say anything more instead I would just hold him so he knew I was here. After about four minutes rain finally choked out a sentence that honestly made me want to cry as well "don't you hate me now" he managed to choke out and it ripped my heart out of my chest. That's why he's so worried. "No no no no of course not sweet boy I'll never hate you" I tried to keep my voice even but it hurt to know that someone or something made him feel like I would leave him for this. For just being him. "B-but I'm disgusting" it hurt to know that he felt this way about himself so I wanted to try something to see if maybe I could help but I didn't know how yet "not at all sweet boy I don't know why you feel that way but you are not disgusting you are the best thing in my life and you are absolutely adorable"

Rains POV
I heard him say "No no no no of course not sweet boy I'll never hate you" but it's like I didn't understand it. How could he not They did. "B-but I'm disgusting" I managed to respond and this time I looked at him he looked like he wanted to cry to.

Alright loves thats it for this chapter you'll probably get another one later tonight so keep an eye out🤍