Rains little secret

15-i hurt him

Hi loves I'm so sorry it took me so long to update there has been a lot going on in my life recently but I'm hoping to update more now!

Payus POV

As we walked through the house I could tell that Rain wanted to ask more questions but he was holding himself back probably still taking in everything I had been to scared to tell him before. "Phi.." he started quietly "yes Rain" I said hoping it would urge him to continue "um you mentioned earlier that i only had part of everything" he cut himself off and I was a bit confused "what do you mean swee- Rain?" I risked looking over at him despite being scared to see his face he looked.. hurt. "Well you said the roses and something I would get later..what is it Phi?" Ah that well how to explain that. "I suppose you'll have to wait and see" I couldn't tell him untill he had decided if he was going to stay or not.

Rains POV

"What do you mean swee- Rain?" Damn it Phi. Why are you doing that? Why are you pushing me away like that. It hurts. It feels like we aren't close or like he no longer wants to be. Just call me sweet boy or even love please phi prove me wrong I WANT to be wrong. I finally spoke up "Well you said the roses and something I would get later..what is it Phi?" he looked surprised for a moment then said " I suppose you'll have to wait and see" it wasn't like this morning when he had surprised me it was more like he didn't want to tell me which hurt...a lot but before I had time to think it through I was already speaking "phi..why are you pulling away from me.. have I done something wrong? I can try to fix it but I don't know what I did.." I tried to blink back the tears that threatened to spill.

Payus POV

I was trying to figure out what he was thinking as a million different emotions flashed across his face and they only had one thing in common...Pain. I had hurt him. He started to speak so softly as though he wasn't quite sure he wanted to be heard "phi..why are you pulling away from me.. have I done something wrong? I can try to fix it but I don't know what I did.." I could see him trying to fight tears and it felt like my heart had been ripped from my chest. I hadn't meant to hurt him. I just didn't want to get hurt either. "I'm sorry Rain I didn't me-" "STOP IT" he screamed "STOP CALLING ME THAT" he continued to scream and one of the bodyguards began to make his way twords us I simply held up a hand telling him to stop he nodded and went back to his post. "But that is your name" I said keeping my voice even was something that seemed to be easier than this morning maybe because I was being watched and I knew I had to be careful you never know who is actually on your side in this job. "NO NOT TO YOU DAMN IT WHAT HAPPENED TO SWEET BOY OR MY LOVE OR ANY OF IT... I hate It phi" he fell to his knees before he continued to speak "I feel you pulling away using my name instead of the sweet names it.. it makes me feel like we aren't close anymore like you dont care anymore.."
Sorry it's short folks 🤍