i hate how my family always finds a way to blame me. i don't even know why i am the black sheep of the family. why was i chosen to carry this burden. even for things that aren't my fault, they twist it into making it my fault. i just want to die, i don't want to go through this test i want to be with Allah SWT. i hate life i want to die i don't want this test. at the end of the day i'm always alone no one is on my side not my mother not my father not my sister no one. it's everyone for themselves.
