Xander's POV
I'm smoking a cigarette in my bathroom. Tori bought me a carton last week and I'm already halfway through the box. Thinking about the things we do makes me feel ashamed and vapes don't do it for me anymore. This is my last day of therapy which means it's finally gonna happen.
But I don't want to have sex with her. I never wanted to learn the ropes of sex. This has done nothing to ease my anxiety. If anything I think it's worse. I've locked myself in my room since the first incident because I feel so dirty all the time and I don't want anyone to see me. In movies they say people look different after having sex. What if Yuri or Haru see it on me and I get thrown out for being a whore?
I got over my smoking addiction but now I can't even go to bed without smoking a couple cigs. If I didn't the anxiety would eat me alive. My midnight coffee became a midnight pack.
"Xander hurry up it's time for therapy!" Yuri knocks on my door
I have the shower running so they don't question the smoke or why I'm taking so long.
"In a minute." I call out from on top my sink
The vent is above the sink so I stand on it so I can blow the smoke out
"Dude it's already been an hour."
"It's not like you need to use it so fuck off."
"You'll be late so quit dicking around." He yelled throw my door
"I'll be out in a minute."
I can't even finish my cigarette in peace
"Are you smoking in there?"
I flinched at the question
"What the fuck are you going on about?"
"Your room reeks of cigarette and your shower is running. I'm a smoker I know all the tricks."
"I'm not so piss off." I retorted
"Open the door right now."
"No!" I refused while jumping down to hide my cigs
"Fine then I'll call Al and tell him my theory."
"Shit." I cursed to myself and opened the door
"What? I was just waiting for my shower to heat up."
"All this time and you haven't showered?"
"I was shitting." I shrugged
"I can smell it coming off your breath. Cigs are fucking gross and you're way too young. Give me the pack and I won't tell Al about it."
"I don't have anything." I lied
"I'll just search your room for them." He shrugged and pushed past me
It took him literal seconds to find it hidden in my hamper
"Where the fuck did you get these? You've only been in the house or out with our supervision."
"At soccer someone gave it to me." I lied
"Are you seriously trying to lie? You leave your bag next to us because you don't trust people around your things. We would've noticed a massive carton of cigarettes if that were true." He called my lie
If I tell the truth she'll leak all the recordings of me. Everyone will find out I'm a slut or even worse they'll think I'm a pervert. They probably hurt me before kicking me out.
Yuri's POV
"Crap, HARUHI HELP!" I call out when he starts hyperventilating
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Before Their Story Began
JugendliteraturThis is a spin on the prequel Before Her Story Began. I highly recommend reading that book first. This is supposed to be a short story but I'm being honest with myself and it's probably not going to be because I have a lot I want to incorporate. The...
