c'est la vie • jadon sancho

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29.1.23

hello J

im H, more known as Hana

ive fucked up

and your the only person i can tell about this because im too scared to tell anyone else

so ive told you about harry before

yeah so he asked if i wanted to be his girlfriend

and i said yes

ik you told me not to be around him and literaly everyone else told me the same, even mum, but i'd gone too deep into things and idk how to get things over with

i really don't want to be with him

every time we speak he only adds to the list of red flags

i regret my desicion so much J but idk how to reverse it

and idk why u seem like the right person to tell first

its barely been 20 minutes since it all went down and idek what to do so i came here and i wrote to u

-hana x

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EARLIER...

"harry" hana fake smiles as she sits down at his table 

"hey" he smiles for not even a second

"so, what did you want to ask?"

"sooo, umm ive really enjoyed our time together so like do you wanna be my girlfriend?" he smirks cheekily

her feelings are conflicted between 'no' and 'its too awkward to say no'. but in the end she goes with 'yes but i'll end things soon'

"yeah" she awkwardly utters and sends a fake smile

the boy grabs her in for a hug

and when she though he was just going in for a kiss on the cheeks, she tries to turn to her cheeks but he only turns with her and kisses her on the lips

 the visible uncomfort from hana could be sensed from a mile away, it was not a feeling she liked 

she knew this guy is the last guy she'd pick, yet she still said yes

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1.2.23

hana

thats such a sweet name

but anyways

hana i mean this in the nicest way possible you are a fucking idiot

bro seriously, if you need help getting rid of this guy please please tell me, im so happy to help

you probably won't care much since we've never actually met

but i care

i seriously care about you Hana, i care more than you think

you'd think i sound like a hopeless romantic right now, and i think i'd call myself that too 

but your personality is everything, ive not got a clue what you look like and i couldn't care less because in the last month i realised what a true personality is, it's weird having a friend who you can vent to and they can just vent to me and they won't judge

i know i've got my mates but it's different when ur talking to a guy, it's like you can't express your feelings bcuz oh masculinity you can't show your feelings to anybody you have to box it all up

but with u hana i feel safe i can't lie

you and this book are my safe

hana please stay safe, beware of this guy, ive met people like him, i know he's no good for you

and i'll always be there for you no matter what

just know that

-Jadon x

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—notes

short but sweet

;)