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Opening up- Leah Williamson

Hey my name is Alex! I play at Arsenal and I have blonde hair and blue eyes. I have a problem opening up to people and I don't really talk to people about my feelings... I hid my really ones and fake a happy smile in-front of people...

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I was in the changing rooms, everyone had gone home after training but I was still in here, I wasn't in a good state, I had to stop packing up because my vision was that blurry, I sat down and tried to control my breathing and stop crying. The changing room door flung open, I quickly stood up and turned so I was facing my locker, away from whoever walked into the room. " hey Alex" Leah said softly behind me " hey" i crocked, trying to dry my eyes quickly " have you been crying?" Leah asked walking up to me " no" I said with so much uncertainty " you have" Leah said turning me around. I backed away from her " please Leah stop" I whispered, Leah walked up to me, I tried to move away from her " lexi talked to me" Leah said softly grabbing one of my hands " Alex you can't" I whispered to myself, I pulled my hand off hers " you can Alex, talk to me" Leah said moving her hand to my cheek and stroking it softly, trying to find my eyes, i shock my head and closed my eyes moving my head down, Leah pulled me into her chest, I shoved my head into the crock of her neck, I grabbed tightly around her waist with both my arms, my tears slowly creeped down my face and onto Leah's neck and t- shirt "it's only me lexi, talk to me" Leah whispered, rubbing her hands up and down my back... you can't let her in Alex, remember what happened the last time someone said that to you...I moved away from Leah and turned away from her resting my hands against the table in the middle of the changing room " I can't" I whispered after some time " why" Leah asked softly, moving so she was rubbing her hand up and down my back again " because I promised myself last time I wouldn't go through that again" I said my vision going blurry again " let me in Alex, let me be your person" Leah said pulling my body into her embrace. I broke my promise and spilled everything to her " your so strong Alex, I want you to know that I'm never gonna leave you in the dark like she did" Leah said moving her hands to my cheeks again and getting rid of the last tears on my face.

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2 days later

I've been avoiding Leah, I just can't be around her, I feel uncomfortable knowing she knows everything about me, my mind constantly saying to me what if she tells someone.

I saw Leah walking down the hall, I turned around so I didn't have to pass her, I heard her run up to me and wrap her arms around my waist and pull me into her, my back against her chest, her head on my shoulder " stop avoiding me, I'm not going anywhere any time soon" Leah whispered, I closed my eyes enjoying this feeling of safety, something I've never felt before " I can't Leah, my mind is playing tricks on me, telling me I can't trust you" i whispered looking down at me feet, I know I'm not facing her now but it's something I do when I feel guilty " let me prove to you that I'm not going anywhere then" Leah said kissing my cheek softly.

And that's what she did, it took a lot of time but she kept at it and now she is my person. My safe person....

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Hey guys!! I was sitting in bed and thought I would write this. It reflects me a lot, I don't open up to people and normally decide to keep my feeling hidden to keep myself safe, I find it hard to trust people a lot, so I put up this barrier and don't yet anyone in, I don't even opened up to my mum or dad or my friends. The one time I did open up to someone, she threw right back in my face and that's when I promised myself never to trust anyone again and to never tell anyone how I'm feeling or what's going through my mind.... Hope you enjoyed it ❤️