Clandestine

Justified Judgement

Chuuya was seeing red, bright red. everywhere he looked.

What the fuck had he done to deserve this?

Nothing. He'd done jack shit, he'd done so much for Shirase, even things he was apprehensive and unsure about and this is what he got in return?

He was fuming at how disloyal someone could be.

Part of him wanted to go and confront him this very second, but he knew that if he did that, he'd get arrested for grievely body harm, perhaps even murder.

There was only one person he could go too, to help him calm down...

"Chuuya? Are you alright?" Fyodor asked.

"Yeah, man, you're not looking good, I can't tell if you're going to faint or punch someone or have a mental breakdown," Tachihara added.

Chuuya looked around the room as if to search for answers, he didn't - he didn't know what to do.

Why was nothing working out for him lately? Why was everything so confusing?

He shook his head and stomped over to the coat wrack "I'm going to see Dazai."

Hw saw from the corner of his eye how Tachihara and Fyodor gave each other a look he couldn't put his finger on, so he turned to them "what?" He asked, already sick of the secret glances that they kept giving one another.

"It's just... are you sure going to Dazai is a good idea?" Fyodor asked.

"True, I mean you two are hit or miss, he might make it worse," the other ginger added.

"Maybe. Sara's over there, but... he's the only person I can trust to keep my calm around. Well..." Chuuya paused and smiled, "unless we count all the times he's been an annoying shit."

The other two sighed, "and... I think if I don't go and see him now and I go to Shirase, I'm going to come back here with bloody fists," at least that's what Chuuya liked to believe, he had no problem beating people up if he didn't know them, but if he had an emotional connection ot them, even if it was someone he knew for a short while, like Shirase, he would still find it hard to do something like that, even if he was as angry as he was now.

But his heart ached to see Dazai right now. Chuuya was beginning to notice how he always fled to Dazai when something went wrong with Shirase, he understood that Dazai brought him comfort and made him feel assured that everything was going to be okay. They had their problems but there were no problems that they faced that they hadn't gotten over, they were an unstoppable duo, indestructible too.

Chuuya left after that, he was feeling anxious the entire walk there, which wasn't a very long walk but a walk of anxiety nonetheless. Part of him felt like an absolute ass for intruding on Dazai and Sara, they seemed to have a good thing going for them and Dazai in all the time he and Shirase had been together, hadn't once interrupted his relationship with Shirase, if Chuuya really thought long and hard about it Dazai seemed to try his hardest to avoid Chuuya and Shirase's relationship in its entirety.

At the same time though, part of Chuuya hated that there was a possibility that Dazai could one day find someone and leave him behind, especially if it was Sara, Dazai was already in love with someone, and one day they'd part ways, be unable to see each other at least three times a week. It would be a once maybe twice-a-month thing.

If Chuuya was honest with himself, he'd rather have him and Dazai in a relationship than have to part with him, that sounded like a problem.

Chuuya halted, coming to the realisation that he'd been thinking so hard, he hadn't even realised that he'd made it in front of Dazai's door. He took a deep, long breath and then knocked.