Heal me, it hurt

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Darkness in her beauty is surrending me. Some people are afraid of her but for me, darkness is my peace. The lonely feeling, the silence, the coldness it's all that I aspire for.

Sure people around me can't understand it but I find my peace in it especially recently and right now, I wanna stay in her embrace. Where I feel safe and in peace.

I was bathing in my peaceful darkness when I felt something humid on my arm, I tried to move it away from the wet feeling but weirdly it didn't move.Then my other hand was pressed in a warm hand I think, it wasn't annoying but the pressure started to increase and it became a little painful so I tried to take it back but like my other arm, it has no effect. "What's happening to me" I ask myself in the meantime I tried to move my leg without success.

Panick started to build, "why can't I move" I tried to open my eyes, I could barely open it and within a second they were close again. Then the light buzzing surrounding me became clearer, I could distinguish some voice.

"Please kook, wake up *sniffles*" okay that is Jimin but he seem to be crying, I wanted to try to reach him but an another voice caught my attention.

"Kookie baby, can you hear me? Baby squeeze my hand if you can or better open your eyes baby please..." That cracking voice is my hyung,wait why are Yoongi and Jimin crying. I really wanted to tell them that I was there, fine but I was so tired and the darkness was really inviting. And like that I fell back asleep, letting my hyungs wondering why I didn't answer to them.

I don't know how long I was in it but I came again into cautiousness, this time it was way more quiet, what brought me in was a strong squeeze on my inner thigh and a wet feeling onto my neck. Wait that smell, I know that smell it's Kris! The squeeze on my thigh became stronger and moved close to my crotch area. "Fuck fuck fuck no please no, stop please" I chant mentally, I really tried to open my eyes but I couldn't please someone help me. Then my prayers were answer, I heard some strong sound like a biiiip then a door opening and what seem like someone running in talking but the voice got muffle and again the darkness enveloped me in her embrace.

I'm so tired, my body ache everywhere I don't wanna be here anymore, I want to go back into my dearest darkness and let her take away all that pain. I don't wanna try anymore. I lost the count of time I tried to move or to open my eyes, I know my friends are sad but it's too hard. I just wanna rest. "I'm sorry" I said even though nothing came out. I was letting myself getting the rest I earn when the machine started to bip again, at that moment I felt a sting in my face "did someone slap me?!" then I was kick on the chest and I recognize the angry voice.

That angry voice kept yelling at me when it stopped and started holding my hand. "Jungkook, you can't do that. Don't give up! If you give up I will haunt you as soon as I die, I will never let you rest in peace you understand?! Come on Jungkook, where will I find a perfect assistant like you? Wake up now stop being a lazy ass" Mr Kim voice, he really have a beautiful voice , I never really pay attention to it before but it's really southing. "Wait what is he doing here?" And "why does he hold my hand?!

That's really weird, as soon as he started talking to me while drawing pattern on my hand with his thumb, the machine stopped screaming, it's relaxing and very comforting, I want him to keep talking right now. But he stopped and I felt his grip on my hand loosing so again I tried to command my body to keep his and my hand together even tho I know it won't work.

"Jungkook?" I heard him after my attempt "Jungkook do that again!" Wait does it mean it work? I did try again to squeeze him . Then I heard him calling a doctor. "Jungkook, can you open your eyes please?" Mr Kim ask me with a hopeful voice, so I tried again. Fluttering open, the light was excruciating, it burn my eyes but for the first time in a long time, I was surrounded by light, letting my eyes linger around, trying to make some sense on where I am , my eyes met my boss one. I don't know which drugs they gave me but it was probably a strong one because for the first time since I know him, I swear I saw my boss smiling at me!