Nakyum who was born in kisaeng house used to draw erotic portrait and suddenly a young man told him to continue drawing which he refused repeatedly.
Then, he was forced to stay at the young man house and he was forced to draw the young nobleman sod...
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[ this is Yooha that I drew because I am bored. not that good :> just for fun ]
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"you will marry the crown prince"
Yooha hands clenched her hanbok tightly. her hands shaking in anger as her face turn red.
"I already told the queen that I am gonna break the engagement"
"and she continue it today. you have no excuse"
".....father, I am begging you" Yooha went on her knees before grabbing her father legs "please don't marry me to him!"
one slap was given instead of an answer "break that dreams of yours! girls have their own duty and that is marrying" Master Choi grabbed her face "what a waste of pretty face if you used it for fighting instead" master Choi smirked before walking past her
"I despite you for being a daughter. because of you, I have no heir" the father spat, looking at her with a disgusted face
"I....don't want to be a daughter too!!!" she shouted. veins popping on her neck "I don't want to be a girl too! if you so hate me, w-why....you let me alive! please just kill me!" Yooha cried.
she is tired. she got bored. she was annoyed.
master Choi leaves the room, leaving her by herself. even after her returns, master Choi doesn't changes. he still hate her and the first things he say when he meet her is
"why aren't you dead yet?"
Yooha stand up, a bit staggering before walking out the room. her knees went weak but she try her best to hold back until she at least in her room.
she arrives in her room and immediately smash the mirror she have in her room.
"I hate myself....."
Yooha cried to herself. it's hurt her so much moreover that she finally found out a bit about her biological father. she loves her stepfather but..... he wasn't.
Yooha doesn't want to leave master Choi because he is getting old and he won't be able to continue working. she can't trust Min and if she actually leaves, Min will take over everything. she won't let that happens.
the only person who broke her.....is her father.
"please just kill me....." she mumbled looking down on the broken glasses. it reminded her so much of herself. so broken that no one able to mend it.
*swoosh*
the door opened, revealing Nakyum who was panting after hearing from Aera that Yooha just meet her father.
"agasshi, are you okay?" he walked in further inside seeing the broken mirror. he kneel down next to her, reaching out to grab her arm and embrace her but....she pushed him away.
"don't" the only word left her mouth.
her dark eyes staring at the mirror with a vulnerable expression "I take back whatever I say to you before" Yooha looked at him this time "I.....don't think I could be with you" Yooha scooted away from him
"I apologise for everything I did and fake hope that I give. you can leave" Yooha said not looking at him anymore. it's hurt her too.
Nakyum eyes widen hearing what she just said "n-no. lady, don't push me away, please....." Nakyum keep approaching, shaking his head with teary eyes.
"it's okay if you can't be with me but... don't push me away" Nakyum begged, his heart aching so badly.
"..I will get marry soon"
"what?"
"... I will get married so this is....forbidden"
Nakyum hands clenched "b-but- you don't like crown prince"
"it's didn't matter, Nakyum" Yooha finally gazing at him "it's doesn't. my words doesn't mean anything. my fate are written and I can't changes it"
"... let's run away" Nakyum suggested grabbing her hand "I.....i-cant ....." Yooha shake her head
"my father is getting old and if I ran away......Min will take over and ruin everything"
"I...is there nothing else that we can do? to change this?" Yooha shake her head "I wish you all the best, Nakyum" Yooha reached out, brushing his hair back "you will find a better person than me. I am sure of it" Yooha smiles "I will be rooting for you always" she added before Nakyum tears pouring more than before.
"b-but I love you....." Yooha stopped her movement "y-you will found a better love. just like you did with sir Inhun" Yooha smiles again "love can be changed and develops" she whispered before leaning down, pressing a kiss on his forehead.
"but I won't. it isn't easy for me. however, it's won't be a big deal. I always have been never in love before so...I can just continue them" Yooha said wasn't sure what to do anymore.
she had already given up. she will marry the crown prince even if he will never get her loves. She will ruin the royal names and if that's what everyone wants, she doesn't problem with it. Yooha glanced at Nakyum over her shoulder, watching him crying silently broke her heart but there was nothing that she could do anymore. This is the written fated for her and him together. It is her fault that he fell for her.
She shouldn't have shown the goodness she had to him. she shouldn't have met him on that fateful night. she shouldn't show him hope for them to be together.
She is a monster that was born to be used by the royal family. She is the tool of the emperor. she is a fool who used to imagine a happy bright life with someone she loves.
For the first time in a while, Yooha's heart aches.
As she slides the door closed behind her, her hands are trembling. She can hear the silent sobs of her loved one. Yooha flopped down on the ground, her knees touching the dirty dirt.
