It had been a year since Stanford came back out of the portal he had been for thirty years. My feelings for him hadn't changed, and they were quite frankly still there since the day I met him, that was even longer, it was forty five years ago. We met when we were sixteen, back in college, now we were sixty one. I was quite frankly surprised that I still had feelings for him all those years later.
I wanted to tell him before and after he came out the portal, but he was to busy chummed up with his work, that I didn't have time to him how I felt, but obviously he would never date me.
I sat in my room in the shack, it was a few weeks since I had gotten back from teaching in England. While Stan and Ford traveled around the world, I worked in a high school, and luckily I got away with looking like a thirty year old, so it was easier to gain respect from the students, especially the older ones. Dipper and Mabel went back to California where they lived with their parents. I could tell by their text messages and calls that they missed me, but they were having fun, and school was going well, which is always a good thing. Now it was summer break again, and I was glad to have had a break, even though I enjoyed it, it was still hard work marking tests, as I taught five subjects, substituted for others and was a form tutor and head of year. I did a lot of things for the school, and it got very tiring.
The kids and the men were out adventuring leaving me to do stuff in the Mystery Shack. The gift shop was closed, because poor Soos was sick, so Melody had to look after him. They were the perfect couple, and Soos proposed to her about a month ago. It was perfect and they deserved to get married.
Anyway. I sat in my room, thinking about things, when I decided to go and do some experiments I've been wanted to do in the lab. Since Ford came out of the portal it had been broken and after Bill tried to take over the universe taken apart. I got up, and input the code. The vending machine opened up and I walked down the stairs to the lift, lowering me down. I got to floor three, and walked in. Perfect. The things I needed to preform my experiments.
I got the items I needed, and started working, my hair tied up and bracelets taken off, as I was making sure they didn't get ruined. It was because my mother brought me them when she got diagnosed with breast cancer. She knew she wasn't my going to make it, so she brought me and my siblings in memory of her. Since then I have spent everything minute making sure they didn't get ruined. I couldn't risk my last memories of her getting ruined. I still loved her dearly. Nothing could ever change that.
My first experiment went exceptionally well. The medicine was almost perfect, and I couldn't believe I made that first try, but there was one thing missing, and I couldn't put my finger on it. I held it in my hand examining it, trying to figure out what ingredient I was missing, when I got scared by someone coming down into the lab.
"Y/N?" They made me jump, and the medicine flew out of my hands, luckily I caught it before it spilt on the floor. I sighed with relief, as I looked at the man that stood in front of me. It was Ford. My heart raced, as I held in my breath. I didn't know what to do, and I certainly did not want to tell him why I was making this. I also would not like to explain my backstory.
"Y-Yeah." I stuttered, holding it in my grip, I froze.
"Why are you down here? And are you okay?" He asked, his voice, they way he looked at me. Everything about him made me fold. I wanted him, but I didn't know if he wanted me.
"Y-yes I'm p-perfectly f-fine thank you!" I blabbered quickly, when I'm nervous, everything falls out as quick as the speed of light. Maybe even faster.
"Are you sure?" He titled his head as I nodded vigorously, making me feel dizzy, I was still frozen. I wanted to tell him right then and there, but I couldn't. Not yet anyways. "If there is something worrying you, you know you can tell me right?" He placed his hand on my shoulder, firm but not hard that it hurt.
"Yes, yes I-I kn-know." I gave a forced smile, the medicine almost slipping from my hand. My breathing started to get faster, I could hear the blood in my ears. It was incredibly uncomfortable. He looked concerned for me. I stammered back, placing the medicine in a beaker down on the table not wanting to spill it.
"Is there something you want to tell me?" He asked, I hated how he was testing me with all his questions. All I wanted was to shrivel up and die in my room.
"N-No everything is f-fine." I turned around giving one lasts glance at him while walking into a corner of another desk, piercing my pelvis. It hurt. A lot. "J-just fine." I ran out going up the elevator and the stairs.
I ran up to my room, ignoring Stan and the kids in the kitchen, baking some cupcakes and cookies. They smelt really good.
Once in my room, I lay in my bed, the duvet over my body, not wanting to do anything. I started crying. Why did I have to feel all of these stupid feelings of love. It was painful. I hated it. A sixty year old women crying, couldn't imagine that right.
For the next couple of minutes, tears rolled down my cheeks, as someone came knocking at my door.
"Please can you leave. I apologise but I'm not in the mood." I said, still crying.
"Y/N, please." Ford said from the other side of the door. He was the last person I wanted to see. "I want to help you, with whatever you need." His voice sounded sincere, and as if he was serious. I sighed.
"Fine." I said loud enough so he could hear. He opened the door, my head in my pillow not wanting to look at him. Ford closed the door and walked over, sitting on my bed next to me.
"Y/N I want to help whatever is hurting you." He rubbed my arm gently, as I sighed, tears still running down my cheeks. Not as much as before though. "Please tell me." He begged, I knew he was my going to leave until I told him, so I had no other choice. I rubbed my eyes and turned to face him, my face red from crying. His eyes widened watching me cry.
"I-I. I like you Ford. Not like best friend like, but love like." I looked at him, he gasped. That was part of the reason. The other part was that my brother's granddaughter, my great niece, was sick, and I promised I would find a cure, but Ford didn't need to know that. Yet.
"Wow Y/N." He gave a smile as he lifted me from out the duvet. He sat next to me, my head in the furthest corner. Ford's arm slithered around my waist, as he looked at me his eyes glistening. I looked at him with a confused facial expression planted on my face. "I thought it was just me." My eyes widened as soon as I realised what he was talking about. "I've loved you since college, I just didn't know if you would have liked me back."
"Of course I love you back." I smiled back, my tears finally leaving. I looked at his lips, he looked at mine, as he moved closer, until our lips touched. They were soft, and the kiss was delicate and delightful. His hand moved to my cheek as he pulled away.
"I love you Fordsie."
"I love you too."
———————————————————————— I've almost finished my book series I'm going to cry my eyeballs out. :(
-TDM
