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I couldn't get over the guilt of my dad dying, daisy has moved further away from me because she is too scared to even drive through the city. I watched Jake and Alex fight about stupid sibling's things, I watched Cory laugh and cry. Jake was the best uncle to Cory, it was a shame I couldn't handle the guilt, it was a shame that whatever I did I felt like breaking down, it was a shame that I couldn't stay here for Jake. That day, when I found the box under Jakes bed, I decided to find what was in there, I opened the box, then the fake book, then the bag. In there was pills, the label was ripped off and in the bag was a piece of paper, the paper was written by Jake for himself, it read

Dear Jake,
if you ever come this far, just remember everyone that will do the same if you die, think about Harry, you can't do this, stay alive for him

I never realised how bad Jakes mental health was, I never noticed, but I couldn't bear everything, I opened the pills, the box wasn't see through but when I looked inside, it was empty, I didn't notice Jake behind me
"Harry?" he said
"Jake, why is this empty?" I say
"oh my god, you're not supposed to see that" his voice was shaky, he came over to me and started putting everything away
"why is it empty?"
"look you- you weren't even meant to look in there"
"Jake I'm serious why is the bottle empty" he sighed,
"Harry, I'm not going to get into it"
"Jake, what happened?"
"seriously I'm not getting into"
"how are you not mad right now?"
"cause, I can forgive you,"
"I wouldn't, Jake I just looked through your stuff why are you so calm"
"because I don't get mad"
"why"
"I'm not getting into it"
"Jake"
"what?"
"tell me"
"no"
"Jake seriously"
"no Harry,"
"you never tell me anything"
"CUASE LAST TIME I OPENED UP TO SOEMOEN I EMPTIED THAT BOTTLE" Jake yelled, I swear I never hear him yell, "I'm sorry"
"no Jake, you don't need to apologize"
"no I do I yelled"
"Jake what happened?" Jake told me everything, he told me how he thought he could trust one of his friends but instead they used that against him, and instead of stopping being friends with that person, he tried to kill himself, he ended up in hospitalized for days, although I felt bad for Jake, I felt annoyed that Jake got to these pills before I could. I just knew I could blame myself for this as well, always my fault, even now I know it's my fault.

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