Someone I used to know

Let him go

TW: Torture and mentions of blood

Right after I landed in the forest behind Mattheo's house, I ran towards the front door and into the house. Voldemort was already standing in the hall waiting for me to come through the door. The moment I saw him, I started yelling at him to tell me where Mattheo was. 'WHERE IS HE?!' I yelled. 'Where is who, Y/N?' I'm not in the mood to play his stupid game. 'YOU KNOW WHO! WHERE THE FUCK IS MATTHEO?!' 'I don't know who you're talking about.' He said with an ugly smirk on his face. 'TELL ME WHERE THE FUCK MATTHEO IS OR I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!' 'Oohhh... getting fiesty now? I'm not used to you being so fiesty. I kinda like it. But, that's something for later. Mattheo's downstairs in the basement. I suppose you still know the way?' He said smiling at me. I quickly ran past him down the stairs. Sadly I still knew the way, but that wasn't something I wanted to think about right now. Right now, I needed to get to Mattheo as quickly as I could. I saw the same room, where I got tortured by Voldemort and I ran into it. When I got into it, I saw Mattheo sitting there. He was tied to a chair and slowly bleeding out. He was already passed out and I was scared he wouldn't have a lot of time left. I quickly ran towards him and tried to wake him up, but it wasn't working. 

'WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM?!!!' I yelled at Voldemort, who had come down into the basement as well. 'Just a little curse, I suppose.' 'PLEASE HEAL HIM!' 'Why would I do that? That's no fun!' 'HE'S YOUR SON, GODDAMMIT! DO YOU REALLY WANT TO KILL YOUR OWN SON?! NOW, PLEASE! I'M BEGGIN YOU! PLEASE HEAL HIM!' I was begging on my knees while crying. I couldn't understand how someone can be this evil and be hurting their own son like this. 'What do I get in return for healing him?' Voldemort asked me. Why couldn't he just heal him? Why would he need anything in return for saving his own son?! 'ME! You can do anything you want. Curse me, torture me, kill me. You can do anything, but please heal him and let him go! I'm the one you hate. I'm the one that is a distraction. He didn't do anything wrong! So, please I'm begging you. TAKE ME, instead.' It was all my fault that Mattheo was looking like that, the least I could do was sacrifice myself to safe him. 'Fine. Vulnera sanentur.' Mattheo started to slowly heal again. Finally. Now he just needs to wake up. He started to slowly open his eyes and took a couple of deep breaths. 'Hey, hey, babe. You're okay. You're fine.' I said to him. 'Y/N?! Why are you here?! You have to leave!' 'No, Mattheo. I can't.' I was looking at him with tears in my eyes. This was starting to look more and more like my dream and I was scared what would happen if I didn't get Mattheo out of here as quickly as I could. 'What do you mean that you can't?! Yes, you can! Now leave!' I started to untie Mattheo while saying: 'No Mattheo, you have to leave! Go! Now! You can go!' 'I'm not leaving! Not without you!' 'Yes you are! You have to! Your father won't hurt you anymore. You don't deserve any of this. This is all because of me. You got hurt, because of me. I should have never come back, I should've stayed away and kept you safe. But, I didn't, so now it's only fair that I get hurt and that you are safe. So, LEAVE!' Tears were rolling down my cheeks now. 'Please, don't do this, Y/N. This is not your fault! And I sure as hell won't leave you here with him!' I need to get Mattheo out of here. He needs to listen to me. I don't care about myself, but I do care about him and I need him to be safe and not be stuck here getting hurt or worse.... 'Mattheo, please. I love you and I need you to leave. You know how bad it was when I saw what happened in my dream, I can't handle seeing that in real life. You need to go. People need you. Your friends need you. And I need you to be safe.' 'Don't you think people need you too?! Your sister needs you, your family needs you, OUR friends need you, I  need you. So, no I'm not leaving and I'm not going to let you get hurt. I promised you I would keep you safe and I promised that to Pansy too. So, if I leave you here, I will get killed by her. So, I'll never really be safe. Now get behind me.' Mattheo pushed me to the side and stood infront of me. Mattheo then looked at his father and said to him: 'I won't let you hurt her. Like I said, if you even touch her, I will fucking kill you!' 

Voldemort looked at him and said: 'Son, you have a choice. You can either leave now or you will both get hurt. I'm not scared of you, so make the right choice. Your little girlfriend wants to sacrifice herself for you and I'm okay with that. So, I will let you leave now. I just need her now anyways.' 'NO! I WILL NEVER LEAVE HER HERE WITH YOU!' 'Fine, Crucio!' Mattheo fell down to the ground and was moaning in pain. I don't know what Voldemort had already done to him, before I even got here, but I guess it wasn't a fun father son talk. I kneeled down next to Mattheo, who was still in excruciating pain. 'You will regret that! CRUCIO!' I yelled. Voldemort took a couple steps back and was visibly in pain, but was still standing. How can he still be standing?! 'That was a stupid choice girl! CRUCIO!' Voldemort said. Now, I also fell down on the ground in excruciating pain. But, because I performed the Cruciatus curse on Voldemort, he lost focused and Mattheo got out of it. He was now trying to catch his breath and yelled Stupefy to get his father away from me. I, now, also got out of the Cruciatus curse and was able to catch my breath again. 'Are you okay, love?' Mattheo asked me while trying to help me stand up. 'I'm fine. Nothing I haven't felt before.' I said with a weak smile. 

'Son, you should not have done that! SECTUMSEMPRA!' Voldemort yelled. Mattheo fell down on the ground bleeding once again. 'NO!!' Seeing Mattheo like that, something in me snapped. Voldemort has hurt us too much all these years. I don't know what came over me, but everything in me got dark and it felt like I was watching myself from out of my body. I wasn't in control anymore, when I saw myself yell 'AVADA KEDAVRA!' at Voldemort. Voldemort took a couple steps back and fell down to the ground before desintegrating. He was dead and I had done it. I was still out of my body, when I healed Mattheo. Once he was safe and started to sit up straight, I somehow came back into my body and fell down to my knees. 'What have I done? I... I... No... I .... didn't.... I .... didn't... mean to...' I whispered, while a tear started to fall down my cheek, my hands started shaking and my breath started to get faster and less deep. 'Hey, Y/N, love, look at me. It's okay. You're okay. Just look at me.' I couldn't look at him. I couldn't look at the person who just had to watch me kill his father. I just stared at the ground, while whispering to myself asking myself what I had done. 'Love, please look at me.' Mattheo said, while lifting my chin, so I would look at him. 'You're okay. It's okay. It was the only way. He would have never let us go. At least not before one of us or even both of us were dead.' 'Mattheo.. no... I... I .... killed him... I ... killed.... your.... father... I... am so... sorry... I...' 'It's okay, Y/N. If you didn't, I would've. I told him, I would kill him, you were just faster. Now, please breathe with me. In.... out... in... out...' My breathing didn't slow down. I couldn't slow down my breathing. I just killed someone. I killed my boyfriends father. I took someones life and I took Mattheo's father away from him. I can't forgive myself for that. 'Y/N please breathe with me.' I tried my best to breathe. After a couple minutes, I was finally able to, but I wasn't able to talk anymore. I just kept quiet. I didn't know what to say to Mattheo anymore. He hates me now. I'm sure of it. 

After I had calmed down a bit, Mattheo lifted me up into his arms and took me outside. We needed to leave that house. There were still deatheaters there and not all of them would be happy to know that their Dark Lord was just murdered. Luckily he desintegrated, so noone would ever know for sure he is dead if they didn't see it actually happen. 
Once Mattheo and I got outside, he asked me how I got here. 'I heard something about you getting here on a Hippogriff. Is that true?' He asked me. I just nodded my head and pointed at Buckbeak. 'How the hell did you get here on a Hippogriff?!' He asked me while looking stumped. I get why he would be stumped. Not everyone dares to get close to a Hippogriff, let alone fly them. I just shrugged my shoulders, before walking towards Buckbeak, bowing towards him and climbing on top of him together with Mattheo. Mattheo was still a bit nervous to get on Buckbeak, but he enjoyed it a lot when we were flying in the sky. After the flight, we got off of Buckbeak and let him go back to the forest. I thanked Buckbeak and walked back to the castle together with Mattheo. I still hadn't said anything to him since we left his house, because what could I say to him.