Immortal

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I really don't wanna be bothered today. I'm a hundred percent sure it's because i'm hormonal and my period is around the corner. Haven't been sexual in I don't know how long, it's starting to really fuck with me. Beyoncé is either waiting for me to make the first move or she's just not feeling it. I don't know but something has to shake. It's bothering my soul! I'm horny!!

But i've been trying to act like it isn't anything. I'm good...a little dick deprived but i'll be fine. Hopefully. I just know Bey has a monster... I need that. She fine as fuck walking around like it isnt shit.

I've been in the bed all day just in my phone and talking to the girls. They say that they're very proud of me for taking big girl steps but I should still talk to my family. I say it's bullshit but whatever. They always want me to talk things out. I don't think it's necessary because I didn't do anything wrong completely. She started the whole thing. Mama has to realize that I don't be in the mood all the time. I have feelings and moods as well.

Erica was upsetting me on the call so I eventually hung up on them. Trying to take everyone's side but mine. I hate that for her. Like girl just vibe. Now i'm sitting her upset double time because of her and my horniness. I'm guessing Bey noticed I was mugging and came to the bed. She just stood over me looking like some old psycho. When she does that I just ignore her because it's weird. I could be chilling and she'll just stand over me thinking something is wrong.

"You good?"

"I'm fine."

"Why you looking like that?"

"Cause."

"Cause what bruh? Quit with this attitude man. I ain't even did shit." She yanked the cover off of me and lifted the shirt to rub on my belly. Her hands were cold. Either she's high or she's just being her touchy self right now. Always wanting to rub on me or lay on me.

"You too old to be getting frustrated the way you do. Better quit frowning before it be permanent wrinkles." I mumbled without looking at her and scrolling on my phone. Okay so maybe I won't be okay with this horny thing. It's starting to effect my mood on it's own. Haven't made an old joke in a good minute. She hates it when I do and sometimes will get to joking on me. Now that's what I hate. She be taking it too far.

"You getting on my nerves and working to get fucked up." She started to walk away. That's exactly what I want actually.

"Fuck me up then." I kept a frown and my eyes in my phone. It hadn't hit me that i'd said that until my phone was snatched and she yanked me to the end of the bed. "Ouch!" She pulled pretty hard, and her nails are long so i'm sure there's a scratch on my ankle now.

"Shut up, my nigga."

"Don't call me that." My voice went low and I frowned deeper. She shouldn't be calling me that, i'm not one of her little friends....I'm
her girlfriend...without the title. We need to have a conversation about that because she's mine, I don't care how old she is. This girl has my whole entire heart at this point. She can do whatever she want with me.