𝐑𝐄𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐃

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 - 50

.𝐉𝐚𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐞'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕.

I can't do this.
I feel guilty.

It all feels wrong.
Standing in front of my Father's house I'm not sure if I should go in.
I look up at his house the white walls slightly peeling because of age.
His grass still as green as healthy grass should be.
But most of his flowers are dead.

God. I love my dad and for me to go in there and talk to him about my mother's death, Dmarco, the deal, Dmarco's Father, shark loans, all the lies they had been feeding me over the last five years will take a lot of me.

I gulp looking down at my feet tightening the grip on my suitcase's handle. Am I even ready for this?

A tear made its way out of my eye instantly falling on my blue dress.

I close my eyes taking a deep breath slowly walking up to the front gates but I stop... Why am I stopping? Isn't this what I want? The truth?

I can't do this, not now at least.

Moving as fast as I can I turn around and start walking away. I'm not prepared for this.

My wind playing around with my hair, while pushing my suitcase but I stop in my tracks when I hear my name "Jasmine? Is that you?" I heard my aunt's voice but I don't turn around.

I stay suited where I am staring at the ground my jaw clenched.

You got this.

And with that I turn around seeing my aunt but she looks different than I had remembered her, she now has her hair shoulder length but last I saw her it was in the middle of her back.

I fake a smile walking over to her. "Look how much you've grown my baby!" She squeezed me into a life draining hug but I just went with it a little laugh escaping my lips "I missed you so much! Your even taller than me!" She says pulling away from me studying me closely from head to toe "Have you been eating well? Why are you this skinny?" She says frowning and my eyes almost peel out.

Skinny?
My mouth falls open offended but I just laughed it off "Yes I'm eating well Aunt Samantha... But look at you, you changed just as much yourself..." I say and she smiles at me, I gladly return the smile.

"Let's get inside it's windy out today..." She says placing her hand on my lower back but I don't move causing her to turn around looking at me confused "What is it darling?" She asks "Is- is my dad here?" I ask her and she shakes her head "He will only be back later... He joined a dog walking club." She says laughing and I laugh with her in disbelief.

My dad walking dogs?
That's new.

After that we entered the house and she made me a cup of coffee with a few biscuits complaining about how I should eat more...

I only brushed it off and now here we are in the kitchen cleaning up.

She cooked us dinner not that I actually had an appetite for anything but she forced me to get the food inside my body.

"I'll clean the rest you can go ahead and rest." I say to her but she strongly refuses "No I'll help you-" "I want to do it... You are tired plus you cooked dinner so please allow me to do it?" I interrupted her and she only glared at me for a second before she gave in "Your dad will be back anytime soon anyways so that you guys can catch up..." She tells me smiling and I fake smile "He will love the surprise!" She says once more giving me a kiss on my forehead "Goodnight Sweetheart."

"Goodnight." I say as she walks up the stairs heading towards her room, I sigh looking at the dishes waiting to be washed.

The pattern on one of the plates are really pretty it's small black and grey patterned flowers and I study them closely allowing my mind to drift off.

Why couldn't dad just tell me the truth? I mean he saw me breaking down, damn I even had to go for therapy... And Dmarco? We have been working together for months now and he didn't once think it's necessary to tell me about any of the stuff they had been hiding from me?

I doubt Aunt Samantha knew anything.
She only arrived after everything happened anyways.
I remember what a bright happy person my mother was... Even in the worst of times she would smile and tell me everything is fine.

I remember once she asked me to take out the garbage but I had a big fear of what kind of monsters were hiding inside there so I told her 'No.' she smiled telling me that I am the one who creates these monsters and they that are all inside my head and afraid of me, that I actually control them.

It made me brave and that is just when I became friends with these monsters, weird enough but one was my best friend his name was Forky why did I name him forky? I don't know.

I miss all the times I had with her. The bad and good times, the advice she'd try to give me but I would never listen and think 'She doesn't know what I'm going through, all they want to do is conrol my life.'  but in reality she knew exactly what was happening and only tried to help.

Then... She...she was gone. Unexpected.
My chest was now paining, burning and so was my eyes.

I look away from the plate focusing on the other dishes mad all over again.

Satan. That is what Dmarco'e father is. Who would take a mother,wife, daughter and sister away from their family?

I snapped out of it all when I heard the front door opening, dropping the plate in the water I dried up my hands staring at the floor hearing my father whistling.

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