𝐑𝐄𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐃

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 - 51

•Jasmine's POV•

Taking a steady breath I closed my eyes silently praying that I will be able to control myself.

He is my father after all.

His footsteps nearing the kitchen but for some reason I feel scared.
Scared because I will be hearing the truth. They had all been telling me lies for years now.
How was my poor mother supposed to rest in in peace?

His whistling soon came to an end when he saw me standing in the kitchen probably very shocked "Jasmine!" He sang happily opening his arms for me a bright smile on his face.
Tears are threatening to pour out of my eyes because I really do want to hug my dad too but I can't.

He sees that something isn't right when he stops in his movement looking at me carefully before opening his mouth "Honey are you alright? What are you doing back so soon?"

I keep quiet my breath uneven. I feel betrayed.

Betrayed by my own father and Dmarco.

"Hi daddy." I say softly my voice slightly breaking as I stand on the other side of the table counter and my father right across from me.

"What's the matter darling?" He is dressed in black dressed pants and a white button up shirt looking back and forth between my eyes.

"Dad...I have something important I need to ask you but..." I swallow taking a steady breath "...but you have to be one hundred percent honest with me I beg you." I say and now he loook a bit confused "What do you mean?" He asks me and I quickly wipe the tear threatening to fall, looking at the ceiling I sigh deeply "Have you been lying to me for years?" I ask and his confusion soon turns into realization as he looks away from my face looking down at the floor remaining quiet.

Patiently waiting for him to answer my question he opens his mouth to talk but soon closes it once more.

"I don't know what you are talking about." He says without Shane and my eyes widened at his statement. Is he really going to stand here and lie to me?

I couldn't stop the dry sarcastic laugh from slipping past my lips "Mhm. Sure you don't. Well dad mind me refreshing your memory?" I ask and he looks at me uneasy "So... For starters, I heard that my mother's death wasn't a coincidence and that you were in dept and couldn't pay back the shark loans then they...they murdered mom." Saying the last three words my heart burned and now the tears just freely streamed down my cheeks.

My dad had a few tears in his eyes as well and here I was waiting for him to tell me it's all lies it isn't true, that he had nothing to do with the death of my mother.

But instead he says "Jasmine... I'm sorry." And with that he confirmed my statement I hoped and prayed would be so wrong "I- I didn't know what else-"

"What else to do. Well I need you to stop acting like the hero then because the money you so desperately needed and received from them didn't even go for food in the house. You used it all to go drinking. You never really cared about me and mom " I cut him in remembering all those times he would come home drunk and my mother would try helping him but he just didn't care and the next day it was the exact same situation.
Over and over again.

After my mom's death he changed he changed so much. It felt like I finally had the father I had always longed for.
I didn't think much about the fact that he never placed his mouth to a bottle of alcohol again rather that he was hurt by my mother's death and decided to be a changed man.
But instead he felt guilty.

Guilty that he is the reason why I didn't have a mother when I needed her most. Guilty for being the reason why she left me all alone.

"Don't say that. I always cared about your mother and you... I know that I had made mistakes and it haunts me everyday still. I asked for forgiveness from God and I know I should've told you but I knew you would hate me sweetheart." He dares to challenge me further "Forgiveness? Dad how do you want forgiveness when you never even bothered to tell my the truth for five years. Five years. For five years I thought you are a changed man that you longed for my mother just as much as I did. But then you never cared enough about me to think that me, your daughter needed to know the Truth. Yes I would've been mad but I think it would've been better to tell me then than me finding out on my own years later." I say and I can see that my words clearly hurt him his breathing also a bit unsteady.

"I am a changed man. You never saw me drinking again did you?" He tries defending himself.

"Dad it's not about the alcohol! Why can't you seem to understand?" I ask crying hitting my hand against the table hard "Calm down Jasmine."

"Calm down? How do you expect me to call down after you took my mother away from me?" I aks once more and then I hear the voice of of aunt right behind me "Is everything alright?" She asks and my dad keeps quiet and I do the same.

The silence loud enough.

I give him one last look before I turn my back on him slead walking upstairs "Come on Jasmine let me fix this!" He calls but I ignore him moving past my aunt quickly shutting my bedroom door. I go lay down on my bed hugging my knees crying.

What do I even do now?

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