To The Beyond You

Chapter 8

Dear Evelyn,

If there were any chances for you getting closer to me just a little bit more i would do that at all possibilities. Now i know what love truly is. You are perfect. You are for me. Yes i admit that i have no words to describe you how this feels but you are to be blamed for this. Because maybe that's what love is. It dosent have to said. Dosent have to be explained. But feel through the drive of it. I want to love you more. But that can only happen if you will be mine. Forever. Officially. So baby,

Will you marry me?

I'm moved with the last four words. Its not that i never knew this was coming but it was so much sooner. Its like The world has been silenced. Or maybe I'm feeling it because I'm paused. Im not sure but i think if i just move an inch of my body they'd react. They are probably assuming that im still reading. That's what I thought. Except when I turned my direction towards them and i saw Ryan kneel down to me. With a ring. I don't talk. I can't talk. Words are perfectly stuck in my throat. I all i do is gasp with my palms.

He dosent repeat the last four delighted words of the letter instead in an instant he says,
"Be mine?"

I react to it. Finally. Being shy? Whats that,,?

"Yours-"

I'm not sure i spell it correctly. I was confused between yes and yours. I didn't really have much time to calculate.

And then he rings me. I don't care how i phrased that sentence but it happened. This moment takes only two seconds but worth appreciating for rest of the life. In that moment i didn't think if I'll miss my bachelor times or Could i possibly be a wife to someone or whatever that was. But it was all with Ryan. So. Yes.

He climbs upto me and hugs me. I don't think i see anybody else in my view except Ryan.
After we had our moment there comes my mom. Mom. She said no to this earlier? Why?

"Congratulations Ryan and Evelyn."
Says both mom and dad.

"Eve. Mind for a second?"
Asked my mom as she grabes me from his arm. It might be not good for Ryan as he stares at mom suspectfully while she took me.

"Dear. I'm sorry for ruining your moment. I am, seriously."

"No mom its alright. What's the matter?"

"I'm sorry for this, but this has to be."

She breaths heavily before saying,

"If you have to choose one from your life or Ryan..-?"

She paused. She was looking at me with a question on her face.

I'm not sure i understand. Why would she put two same meanings which meant for my existence, seperately?

"Mom? I love Ryan?"
I say. I confirm her. I'm confused. Maybe it's the answer that she needs for her son or if she is thinking that i dont live my life when with ryan then she is wrong. That's exactly when i live my life?

"My dear. Listen. You don't get it. After your wedding he would never let you go away from him.."

What? I stare at her as I process what she said a while ago.

She exhales anxiously,
"Ryan and his father they both have this thing. They desire atmost for what they want and once they have it, they cage it for it to be safe with just them."