Y/n x Spider (From Avatar: The Way of Water) Part 2

You're kidding, right?

(Spider's POV)

The confused look on Y/n's face says it all. She just realized that I am serious. I don't know why I put myself in this totally awkward situation. The words just sort of fell out. I didn't mean them. Well, I do mean what I said, it is true. I just didn't mean to actually say it.

"You're kidding, right?" Y/n asks, with a tone that I can't tell what it means.

I laugh, trying to make it seem like I AM joking. 

Being who I am, I blurt out, "Yeah, obviously. I didn't mean to lead you on like that."

Y/n scoffs and turns around, storming off.

Well, I think I just made a bad day for myself. I stood right in front of what could be a good day, and I ruined it. I am glad that she believed my lie. If only I could believe my own lies. Do I really like Y/n? No, that is just wrong. Is it though? YES. It is wrong. But why? What is so wrong with liking Y/n? Maybe the fact that she would literally murder me at any given moment and not even care that I have died. She wouldn't even frame someone else for killing me, she would probably admit to the deed, the second that someone brings it up.

So, what's wrong with a little bit of hatred? A lot of things, but I can't seem to be pulled out of the trenches of Y/n. I guess I will just have to live with the fact that I like the one person that absolutely hates my guts and would serve them on a silver platter.

Should I do something about these feelings for Y/n? I want to, but I already saw the way she reacted when she knew I was being for real. It wasn't that bad of a reaction, it could have been worse. I've seen worse. Could I try confessing my feeling for Y/n? I could. Should I try confessing my feelings for Y/n? Probably not. Will I try confessing my feelings for Y/n? Yes, I most likely will end up confessing my feelings for Y/n. It's like I'm TRYING to make my life hard. Eh, whatever. Worst comes to worst, she kills me. If I am dead, I wont have to deal with the pain of rejection.

I go to grab a mask and walk outside, planning what I am going to do to confess my feelings.