Lonely hearts

2. Ditched

I open my eyes again and check the time. Half past one. He is very late now. Should I call him? Or would that make me look desperate? Well, actually I am , so never mind. I search Matt's name in my contacts. When I find him I press the call icon. It rings a few times, but then I hear regular beeps. Did he hang up on me. I stare at my screen for a moment longer and sigh. Maybe he's busy getting ready I'll call again later.

After five minutes of scrolling on insta I decide to call him again. After a few rings Matt's voice rings through the phone. "Heyy little one." "Heyy, where are you at?" "What do you mean?" "We agreed to have lunch together today, I've been waiting for you for half an hour. "Oh yeah, shit forgot." I sigh deeply. Sure enough he forgot about me again. "I'm at Amber's right now, but we can come." "No never mind I'll go home."

Without waiting for further response, I hang up. Was that too harsh? Maybe so, but who cares? I'm angry and he should know that. It's okay if he forgets something once in a while, but since he's been dating Amber we never do things together. He only thinks about her. And when we do go do something Amber always comes along at the last minute. I am done with that.

I check out and then quickly cycle past the store. I throw a tub of ice cream and a bag of candy in my basket and then checkout. From the store I bike home, where I immediately sprint to my room. I grab my laptop and drop onto my bed. I turn on my series as I pull open the container of vanilla ice cream. I take out a big scoop of ice cream and put it in my mouth. The cold ice cream melts in my mouth almost immediately.

I am not really focused on my series. How did Matt just forget about me like that. For six years we've been best friends and then he gets a girlfriend and immediately forgets about me? I mean I get that he wants to spend time with Amber. It's his girlfriend. Besides, Amber is a really nice girl too, not to mention. But he can't get away from her anymore.

I sigh and close my laptop again. This makes no sense I'm not looking anyway. I grab my phone and open insta. Bored, I start scrolling until I see Matt has posted something. A picture together with Amber where he gives her a kiss on the cheek. A jealous feeling creeps up on me. I've known for a while that I do see Matt more as friends, but wasn't planning on doing anything about it since he has a girlfriend, but pictures like this make me jealous. I don't get it either. They've been in a relationship for five weeks now and the fans have known for two weeks. I mean don't get me wrong, but Matt is usually quite keen on his privacy. In those two weeks they have also already posted three photos together, whereas before that Matt was posting once a month. Somehow I know this isn't right, but I let it go. Matt is happy and I'm not going to interfere with his relationship.