Selfless, but Alone (Tommyinnit Oneshots)

Mistakes Happen. We Can't Control It.

A/N it's been a long time, lol. Sorry.  This is part three to New Group

tw: mentions of sh, ed, insomnia, depression, anxiety, meds

*a few weeks later - Tommy POV*

It's been a few weeks since I first hung out with the feral boys. A few weeks since one of many breakdowns in my life. For the past few weeks, I've been under almost constant supervision from one of the boys.

They've slowly encouraged me to eat at least a little bit of food with them at proper meal times.

My father is still on one of his business trips, which has given the boys way too many chances to stay overnight at my house. I feel bad about them basically having to babysit me, but at least I'm not at a hospital.

I have no clue how they did it but Dream and Karl convinced the office to let me and one of the boys do our work in the library. I had panicked when they told me, worried that my secret was out, but they assured me my secret was kept tightly with them.

Lately, all of them have been secretive and kind of quiet. Compared to how loud they usually are, I can hear myself think, which isn't a good thing.

I'm waiting for one of them to snap and tell me the truth. They hate me, I'm annoying, anything is possible at this point.

*Dream POV*

Tommy's been disappearing a lot more recently, and as much as I hate to admit it, I can't blame him.

We've all been quiet recently, I've been trying to keep the group from falling into old habits, but it's hard to keep your team afloat if you're drowning too. I think we're all still clean, but I wish I was 100% sure.

Tonight is one of the first Friday nights we've not been together as a whole in years. I'm sick of the quiet. I send a message in our emergency group chat for everyone to meet at my house in 10 minutes.

I pay no mind to the messages that are spamming my phone, surely from the others wondering why it's an emergency. I know I probably shouldn't let them stress this much, but they'll get over it.

Soon enough, everyone in the group is here except Tommy. I pay no mind, knowing that he lives a little farther away than the rest, and hope that he's on his way.

I take a good look at the group for the first time in a few weeks. Quackity and Sapnap have dark circles under their eyes from not enough sleep, maybe not any sleep at all. George's eyes are flicking to every corner of the room, avoiding making eye contact with anyone. Karl and George's knees are both bouncing quickly. Karl is fidgeting with anything he can get his hands on. And all of them are wearing hoodies again.

I pause before I speak, trying to control my anger at myself for letting this happen. "Guys, what happened to 'tell each other everything no matter what'?" I don't want them to think I'm mad at them so I quickly add, "I'm not mad at you guys, you can't control it. I just want to help you feel 100%."

Individually, I walk up to each of them. Starting with Sapnap, who I've known the longest, I ask for permission and pull him into a hug. He melts into it instead of flinching away and I sigh, thankful it hasn't gotten to that point again. I quietly motion for Sap to lie down on my bed and watch as he moves slowly towards the furniture and collapses onto it as soon as he gets close enough.

Moving on to Quackity, who's stood next to Sap, I hold him at arm's length and wait for him to make eye contact with me, our sign of trust. Once Q's tired eyes latch onto mine, I motion for him to lie on my bed next to Sap. I smile softly as the two tired boys fall asleep next to each other.

Karl is next in my little rotation, and I pause before I reach him. Stepping into my bathroom, I grab Karl's dose of his ADHD meds, guessing he hasn't taken them from the boy's fidgety state. Quietly, I approach him with a bottle of water and the meds extended as merely a suggestion but he takes them without hesitation. I smile softly once more and extend my arms as an invitation to hug. This time, Karl hesitated before standing up and hugging me tightly. I stand there and hug him back until he pulls away. I smile at him and nod towards two passed-out boys on my bed, watching as he sits near the headboard and wraps one of his arms around Q as he runs his fingers through Sap's hair.

Lastly, I step up to George and lightly set my hand on George's bouncing knees. Hoping that he makes eye contact with me, I wait. The longer I waited, the more my heart broke for the boy in front of me, and for the ones all around me. Eventually, his knees are still and I watch as one blue and one brown eye flicker to meet my gaze. I watch as a tear falls solemnly from the blue one. Smiling encouragingly up at George, I remove my hands from his knees and hold my arms open for the raven-haired boy. Slowly, George moves closer to me. Soon enough, he collapses into me and I don't hesitate to pick him up as I fall back onto the couch in my room. Closing my eyes, I fall asleep for a few short minutes. 

I awaken to find all of the boys awake, except for the one next to me. I take note of the puffy and red eyes of the trio on my bed. Not wanting to interrupt the hushed conversation on my bed, I pull out my phone and notice the time has gone by quickly since the boys arrived. I feel George start to awaken next to me and I take the opportunity to speak to the group as a whole. "I'm proud of all of you. I want you to know that." They all have small smiles on their face at my words.

Our quiet moment is broken by Karl pointing out something that all of us seem to have forgotten about. Our youngest member still hadn't arrived. I open my phone once more to see a single unread message in our emergency group chat. 'sorry' it reads.

I let out a quiet curse as all of seem to spur into motion. I grab my car keys and we burn rubber pulling out of the driveway.

A/N looks like this will be my longest mini-series yet. I can't quite decide if I should just turn this into its own little short book. Also, lemme know if I missed anything in the tw. Anygayy, I'm back! Trying to write a few new chapters for CF and push out at least three new stories for this book. Leave me requests please! My not-very-creative brain can only do so much!