Selfless, but Alone (Tommyinnit Oneshots)

Let you down

A/N This song just fit c!Tommy too well for me not to use it

Ever since the SMP declared peace they've gathered every year to share stories about when they were at war. This year Tommy decided he'd write a song.

To say the SMP members were shocked to see Tommy with a guitar on his back when he arrived would be an understatement. People immediately surrounded him, asking him what it's for. He just chuckled and said, "You'll see."

Multiple SMP members shared their stories from the time of war before it came to Tommy's turn.

When Tommy walked up on the little stage they were using to speak, he took a shaky breath before lifting his head from the ground. "I'll admit, I was a pretty bad kid. I hardly listened to anyone and I only acted on emotions. A few people may remember that before L'manberg, Pogtopia, my exiles, or anything like that, I used to play guitar and sing. So over the past year, I decided I'd try and write another song. This one is mostly dedicated to the members of the sleepy bois inc and Tubbo."

Feels like we're on the edge right now  

 I wish that I could say I'm proud

I'm sorry that I let you down

I let you down

All these voices in my head get loud

I wish that I could shut them out

I'm sorry that I let you down

Let you down

Techno and Phil exchanged worried glances, being the only two to know that the voices couldn't mean anything good.

Yeah, I guess I'm a disappointment

Doing everything I can

I don't wanna make you disappointed

It's annoying

I just wanna make you feel like everything I ever did

Was never tryna make an issue for you

But I guess the more you thought about everything

You were never even wrong in the first place, right?

Yeah, I'ma just ignore you, walking towards you

With my head down, lookin' at the ground, I'm embarrassed for you

Paranoia, what did I do wrong this time? That's parents for you

Very loyal? Shoulda had my back but you put a knife in it

My hands are full, what else should I carry for you?

I cared for you, but

Feels like we're on the edge right now

I wish that I could say I'm proud

I'm sorry that I let you down

Let you down

All these voices in my head get loud

I wish that I could shut them out

I'm sorry that I let you down

Let you down

Yeah, you don't wanna make this work

You just wanna make this worse

Want me to listen to you

But you don't ever hear my words

You don't wanna know my hurt, yet

Let me guess

You want an apology, probably

How can we keep going at a rate like this?

We can't, so I guess I'ma have to leave

Please don't come after me

I just wanna be alone right now, I don't really wanna think at all

Go ahead, just drink it off

Both know you're gonna chat tomorrow like nothing's wrong

Ain't that what you always do?

I feel like every time I talk to you

You're in an awful mood

What else can I offer you?

There's nothing left right now, I gave it all to you

Feels like we're on the edge right now

I wish that I could say I'm proud

I'm sorry that I let you down

Let you down

All these voices in my head get loud

I wish that I could shut them out

I'm sorry that I let you down

Let you down

Yeah, don't talk down to me

That's not gonna work now

Packed all my clothes and I moved out

I don't even wanna go to your house

Everytime I sit on that couch I feel like you lecture me

Eventually, I bet that we could have made this work

And probably woulda figured things out

But I guess I'm a letdown

But it's cool, I checked out

Oh, you wanna be friends now?

Okay, let's put my fake face on and pretend now

Sit around and talk about the good times

That didn't even happen

This caused Techno to chuckle. His childhood was great, so Tommy's had to be too, right?

I mean, why are you laughing?

Must have missed that joke let me see if I can find a reaction

No, but at least you're happy

Feels like we're on the edge right now

I wish that I could say I'm proud

I'm sorry that I let you down

Oh, I let you down

All these voices in my head get loud

I wish that I could shut them out

I'm sorry that I let you down

Oh, I let you down

Yeah, I'm sorry

I'm so sorry now

Yeah, I'm sorry

That I let you down

When Tommy looked back up from his guitar, he had tears streaming down his face but he still managed to plaster a small smile on his face.

The audience however was shocked. Half wanted to run up and comfort Tommy and the other half was ready to murder Phil, Techno, and Wilbur.

A/N Might write a part two about the sbi reactions! lmk if you wanna see that!