Can this be like this?

Is it worth it?

Is it worth fighting for? When no one can help or understand what you go though. No one is able be there when you need them the most. But when i don't tell them they get mad and upset becasue i won't tell them what's wrong. No one will ever understand me before i start pushing them away and keeping them at a distant. I hate when people feel sorry for me but i don't know what to say.. that it's fine when it's not? Or that it will be everntually when it never will be? Do i still keep going though this everyday? Where im always depressed becasue that doesn't sound so fun. But i don't think i have a choice now do i? Becuase i don't think i do.. But it's oh well i gues. It has to be. I have to keep pretending to be strong when really i'm just breaking inside and no one sees it. I was close to leaving till i got with my boyfriend. He's absolutely perfect. He loved me when i couldn't love myself. He's saved me many times when he doesn't even notice it. I can be so depressed and about to relasp but he will make me smile and happy again. Because of him my scars are slowly fading away and can barley be seen.