Can this be like this?

And It Still Repeats...

Recently I just lost my puppy I loved so dearly... I haven't been the same since.. everyone tries to cheer me up but it doesn't work. My relationship is going down the drain again.. I don't know how to stop it other than watch it fade away like every other relationship I've been in.. people are going behind my back talking about me. My boyfriend goes to my best friend and I'm not even allowed to know what it's about? Wow thanks for the stab in the heart. So needed that after this week. So many thoughts in my head are weighing me down hard and fast. Who knows how long I'll be here... there's so much stress that's been weighing on my shoulders.. it's killing me from the inside and I have yet to find my cure. For now on I will shut down all feelings I have towards anything because I'm done being hurt and upset.