Cherophobia

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I felt my body whimper after he pulled back, but he instantly closed the gap again taking my lip in his.

A moan surged from my throat and he groaned holding my face in his palms. He took advantage of my parted lips, and plunged his tongue in my mouth making me moan again as he sucked on my tongue slowly, as if savoring the moment but it came to an end too quickly. We both needed air.

Our foreheads met as we breathed sharply.

"K"  he took my hand in his and that was when my brain decided to start functioning again.

What have I done! That wasn't supposed to happen at all. I just ruined our friendship.

I shut my eyes tight thinking of how I was going to explain myself.

"I need to see your face, let's turn on the light." I shook my head instantly, scared to look at him.

What is wrong with me? I should have stopped him, that kiss was supposed to be for his girlfriend. Oh God, I just ruined his relationship.

"Please, I really need to see you." he pleaded again with our foreheads still together. "Please" he whispered desperately making it hard for me to say no. I exhaled and murmured an okay. Now how was I going to explain this?

He quickly got off the bed and moved to the door to turn on the lights. The lights instantly blinded our eyes for a minute and then we both stared at each other. I honestly didn't know what to say.

I'd been scared for a while about this and now my heart sank thinking of what he'll say but, a smaller part of me loved it.

Which made me feel extremely awful. I just ruined one of my favourite relationships again.

He moved from the door to the bed taking my hands in his but I was so embarrassed to look at him, to process everything.

He released a deflated sigh and raised my head with his palms. He opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out.

Obviously I'd ruined everything, I got up to pack my stuff thinking of a way to apologize when I leave. That way, I wouldn't face him too much but I was wrong.

He pulled me back to the bed and smashed his lips on mine. And this time, I knew I was a goner. It wasn't as slow as the first one.

This felt like a rush but at the same time needful. He didn't give me time to adjust to his lips on mine, he bit my lips causing me to automatically open my mouth.

We fought for dominance for a while but I gave in to him. We both sighed, moaned and groaned at the heat building between us.

"K" he moaned again pressing a lingering kiss on my lips as he moved to my neck making me sigh.

"I love you." I froze immediately his words registered in my head.

He loves me. He said he loves me. No way!

He remained oblivious peppering kisses on my neck but stopped immediately he registered what he said.

He looked at me with his face looking so pale.

"I didn't mean it like that, I mean I-"

"Yeah I get it." My heart tugged at his words. Of course he didn't mean it. I mean look at me. I wasn't the right person in the first place.

"No no you don't get it let me explain." He pleaded looking frustrated more than ever but I opened my mouth to let him know that I was to be blamed for this but, he stopped me again with another soft kiss.

"I do love you, I..I've been waiting for this day and....please here me out." I stared at him somehow bemused but still thinking about the three words he said.