i haven't really known who i am
since i was 10 years old
before everything changed
before i hit rock bottom
before my mind decided
i wouldn't be in control anymore
it's such a strange feeling
to go through your teenage years like that.
i wasn't like the other kids
and from that point on
i was convinced
i'd forever be lost
forever be alone with this illness
my mind is always changing
it can never be still
no matter how much i will it to
i've lived with this for a long time
and still feel lost in my head
it still takes over
my feelings get so intense
sometimes it feels as if they have a chokehold on me.
