Justajoo

Past

Author's POV

***Flashback***

"Taimur, will you also leave me like ammi and abbu", questioned a 17 year old Abiha quietly.

"No biha, i would never leave you but why are you asking", asked 22 year old Taimur.

"I don't know, it suddenly occurred to me", she replied.

Taimur shook his head and kissed her forehead earning a giggle from her. 

Abiha was still coping with the loss of her parents. And the person she sought comfort from was Taimur. Maybe because he didn't treatment her differently after her parents death.

Her other family members didn't treat her badly rather they were worried for her, her cousins took pity on her, that's what she disliked the most. She just wanted people to look at her normally, to maybe just give her some space. Something, that she got from Taimur.

He didn't take pity on her, he treated her normally, the thing that she has been craving from everyone. That's how they grew closer to each other.

It's been three year since the accident but it felt like yesterday to her. Her parents were very loving towards her. Her uncle and aunts tried to take that role but no matter how much they loved her, no one can fill the void in her heart for her parents. No one can take a parent place and no one can love you like your parents.

She knows her Tayi ammi and choti ammi loved her a lot but she also knew that they can never love her exactly like their children.

No matter how hard everyone tried to engage her in some work throughout the day, the truth was she felt lonely at night.

And it was Taimur who used to check up on her, maybe that was what touched her heart. He used to sit beside her and tell her stories until she fell asleep; he used to help her complete her assignment when she was tired or unwell; he used to sit beside her explaining chapters she couldn't understand; he used to give her his share of chocolate and ice-cream; he used to encourage her during her competition; he used to console her when someone said mean things about her.

Maybe that's why she fell in love with him. Comfort, love , safety, security that she lost during her parents death were provided by Taimur.

He was the one who looked after her when she needed someone the most. He never judged her, never questioned her, never demotivated rather he did everything to make her a better human.

He filled her life with happiness.

How could she not respect him? How could she not look up to him? And most of all how could she not love him?

Taimur Akram Khan was her pillar. He was the reason she was living. He was the sole reason she wanted to be a better person.

That's why she cared for him more that herself, that's why she could never be angry on him and that's why she couldn't live without him.

She gave her heart to him knowing fully well that he just saw was her as a sister or maybe a friend but he could never see her as a woman. And that what scared her, she could never stay away from him but she also knew if a time arises where she had to choose between her and Taimur's happiness, she would choose his, without any doubt.

She prayed to Allah to fill his heart with love for her. To write her name beside his , to make him her Mehram.

She didn't wanted to do anything haram because of her love for him. That's why she wished to make it Halal.

At first she tried to deny her feelings but with time it only grew. And at some point she knew fighting it was meaningless and thats when she accepted her love for him.

She didn't want to lose the beautiful relationship they have that's why she kept quiet. When he used to talk highly about his female friend she would feel jealous but never showed it. She used to cry to Allah to lessen her pain. 

He never knew what was in her heart and unknowing he kept hurting her. She was his best friend. He got accustomed to her, she was the first person he would share things to. She was the only person he could rely fully on. She was the person who listened to him.

She was someone who lightened his mood, someone around whom, he was genuinely happy.

He was unknowingly protective over her, maybe possesive as well. He didn't like when she spent more time with other cousins, he always sought attention from her.

He didn't want to share his best friend with anyone. Maybe he himself didn't know what his feelings were towards her. But one thing that he knew is that he cares the most about her.

He unknowing was always worried about her, her one message was enough to relieve him.

Abiha became the beautiful part of his life, something that became precious to him.

He doesn't know why he was so attached to her. Maybe because of her innocence, maybe because of her kindness or maybe because of her selflessness. But whatever reason it was, he knew that she was worth all his attention. She was so different than his other cousin.

This was why he always took her side, never scolded her, stuck around her like a chewing gum, always there for her.

Being the eldest gives you responsibility but when he was with her, he felt like himself. That's what he loved about her. Her presence was enough to make him happy.

He felt so much emotion around her. He didn't want to be the Taimur others were scared of, he wanted to be the safest place for her. And he was able to achieve it.

They were so close to each other, he knew her likes, dislikes, expressions, habits, requirements yet he never understood her feelings for him.

But at present he was enjoying their time together who knew all these will become a beautiful memory and one day they will be close yet so far apart.

***End of flashback***

Abiha fell for him yet he had no clue. She was right when she said that in future if it ever came a time when she had to choose between their happiness, she would choose his because that's what she did two years later.

Taimur unknowingly took her love for granted. Maybe in the process of achieving his happiness he crushed hers. Not knowing he was her happiness as she was his.

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Soo...???

I tried my best to portray their relationship in the past. I honestly don't want you all to hate Taimur.

That guy was just maybe confused, clueless; we can't do anything about it as guys are a bit slower in this stuff than girls🤭😜.

Please, please, please 🙏 vote and comment. This is my first story, your likes kinda gives motivation.