[HxH] Caffeinated Catastrophe

𓆩♡𓆪 Four: Espresso

TW: Mentions of body horror and gore.

Sometimes, sacrifices need to be made.

Whether they're small, or whether they're large, it doesn't matter: if they prove to be a necessity, then avoiding them will likely leave you to rot in a situation worse than the one you'd found yourself in prior.

You cannot escape some things, no matter how hard you try. They'll never leave you be. Follow you wherever you go, like a parasitic shadow attaching itself to your own, sipping away at your life force until there's nothing left to take.

Leaving things half-finished will not benefit you, it'll merely lead you to live a life filled with doubt and uncertainty. A life of what could've been, what should've been, not what is.

You won't ever be able to look at yourself in the mirror and say "I did all I could", because you did not. You jumped off before you could finish what you started, and now you have to pay for the consequences of your actions.

This is your doing. It'll become your undoing.

But things do not have to be this way. You can do something about it. You can fix it. Change it.

Wouldn't it be nice? To live a life of pride, of contentment, filled with achievements, ones that you can point at and say "I gave my all for this" and actually mean it? A life others look at with astonishment, jealous of what you've acquired, yet also in awe of what you've become?

They'll gaze at you in amazement, knowing full well they'll never have what you have. Never attain that same sense of self-actualisation you carry with yourself every step you take, because the amount of work you've put into it won't ever be achievable to any normal person.

You're not a normal person. You go above and beyond, you put everything into what you do. It's the only option you know.

Mediocrity is a punishment worse than death.

So sacrifice it all. Everything you hold dear, throw it away to reach your goals. Put it into one small box, push until nothing fits anymore. Then burry it, drown it, just get rid of it. Until nothing is holding you down any longer.

All of these things are replaceable, but self-fulfillment is eternal.

The hierarchy of needs is there to be climbed. You can stay down at the bottom, staring up at all of those that have managed to make their way up. You can watch them wave down at you, watch them lead their lives filled with happiness and satisfaction.

Or you can decide to start climbing. Climbing until the palms of your hands are caked in blood, until the only thing you can feel is the buzzing of the wind hitting your ears while you make your way upwards, higher and higher, eyes only focused on the very top of the pyramid.

And once you've reached the top... Well, you keep climbing.

Achieve new heights, ones nobody has seen before. No obstacles will restrain you from becoming the best version of yourself, nobody will be able to tell you to stop going, because at this point, nothing has any power over you anymore. You've left all that holds you back down at the bottom, where it'll never be able reach you again.

And if you need to climb over a few bodies to achieve your goal, well, then that's simply what needs to be done. They shouldn't have been in your way to begin with.

In the end, all that matters is you. What you want. What you crave. Nothing else will ever hold the same degree of importance.

They may cry, they may question you, but that's simply because they don't understand. They never will. In order for them to do so, they'd have to be at the same height as you. And none of them possess the capabilities to get there.