What If You Fall In Love

Chapter 30: Yet again

Riz..

Hindi ko na malayan ang paglipas ng araw. Grabe matatapos na pala yung one week vacation na binigay sa amin. To be exact? Until tomorrow na lang pala kami dito sa rest house. Then back to reality.

We're all here sa shore. Swimming and doing different things that makes us happy. After this kasi trainings and practice na naman. For sure na miss kami nila coach kaya asahan na namin yung mahirap na mga trainings.

- hoy! sobrang serious ah! what's in your mind?

tanong ni Vyel. then she back ride on me.

- huh!? nothing. naisip ko lang na tapos na pala yung vacation. babalik na tayo ng Manila. babalik sa dorm at babalik sa nakakamatay na training nila coach.

- yun lang? nothing else?

i faces her and give a what-do-you-mean? look. she just smile then sit beside me and put her head on my shoulder.

i can smell the fragnace of her hair when the wind blows.

i feel uncomfortable in that scene. my heart pounds hard and i'm so afraid that she might hear it. so i move my shoulder up and down for her to remove her head.

- ang damot mo! parang sasandal lang eh. bakit sa iba okay lang? tapos ako hindi pwede?

- baka magselos si baby Mads eh. haha.

tiningnan nya ako ng masama.

- ah ganun ba? sige wag na lang. dyan ka na nga! hmmp!

sabi nya sabay tayo.

i grabbed her hand. and looked at her.

- eto naman napaka sensitive. parang nagbibiro lang eh. oh sige na kahit humiga ka pa sa lap ko okay na okay my princess.

tapos umupo uli sya not facing me. hindi na rin sya nagsalita pa. she just stared sa mga team mates namin na nagsu swimming.

- Riz, would you be honest to me?

sabi nya out of nowhere. nilingon ko sya but she didn't looked back.

- mag bestfriend tayo di ba? we grew up together. and half of our life magkasama tayo. we're sisters in different parents nga di ba? bakit i had this feeling that your hidding something to me?

then she faces me. ako naman yung umiwas ng tingin sa kanya.

- may dapat ba akong malaman? no, i mean ano yung dapat kong malaman? Riz, promise kung ano man yun nothing's change.

i picked a stone and throw it into the sea. then i take a deep breath.

- actually there is. i don't know lang how to say it to you. hindi sa ayaw ko or i'm afraid that you'll know the real me. i don't want you to leave me in case you'll know.

- so your doubting our friendship? Riz ganun ba kababaw yung samahan natin? i'm not trust worthy pala for you.

- no Vyel. is not what i mean. of course i trusted you. mawawala na silang lahat, pero ikaw i know you'll here beside me. my problem is, i just really don't have this courage to tell it to you.

- pero sa iba nasabi. kay ate Mich. yes Riz, one time narinig ko kayo but sa part lang na ate Mich assuring you na she's there for you no matter what.

- nag kataon lang na sya yung nandun. and kasi i know she'll understand me.

- at ako hindi? yan ang hirap sayo eh, you always taking me for granted. sa lahat ako yung laging nahuhuling nakaalam na you're not okay pala. ngayon tell me wala ba talaga akong dapat na ikatampo? ganito na ba tayo? lihiman na? tapos eto na naman away na naman.