Love at first sight(selever x julius)

Chapter 22 (why am i like this?)

Note: this chapter is kinda depressing, so you might get emotional.

      ⚠️WARNING:CUSSING,SELF HATE⚠️

                               ♥️julius♥️

I wake up in selevers arms after what happened last night. I start to tear up a bit, feeling like a big fucking idiot, why do I act like this around people I like? The last time I fell for someone, they found out I killed someone for them. They threw a knife at my face telling me to get away from them, I had to kill them in tears, it took me a year to recover all my feelings. I even tried to hang myself after, but I can't die sadly, so I just woke up after the rope snapped. I felt it all coming back in one second, I felt as if I put selever in danger now. Why can't my heart just turn off completely, why... just why...? I let go of selever to get my phone on his desk, i see a note that says,

For julius
From rasazey

I open it to see a message written by her, it made me feel so much better,

Dear julius:
I just wanna say I trust you now, and that I'm counting on you to take good care of my brother. I will only give you one chance tho, so don't waist it! I've given you this chance because you saved me from bad guys before, and you saved my life doing so. So I'm counting on you to take care of my big brothers, take care of him, please.
PS: I will see if you deserve another chance to go with the other one you already have, so keep acting good!
                                                  From rasazey

I felt myself start to cry happy tears, at least one person is keeping me happy right now. I look at my phone and pick it up, I check the time (6:30) shit, I thought, me and sel have to go to school now. I don't wanna go feeling this emotional, I'll probably have a break down if one little thing happens. I guess I'll have to hold it in, like I always do when I feel terrible. I look back at selever, he looked a little sad, I think he was wondering were I was while he is asleep, weird, like me. I crawl back into his arms and cuddle back into him, I guess I'll just wait untill he gets up. I cuddle him for the time I stayed awake, I started to get sleepy tho, and I soon closed my eyes and fell back asleep.

                            💖sarvente💖

💖I start wondering why the boys haven't came down yet, I'm starting to get upset with them. Were are those two, I hope selever isn't still in bed, he should already know what fucking happens when he doesn't come down. I hope he's not pulling julius in with him, it's already bin five minute when they should've bin downstairs and out the door! Alright then I guess I'll have to get there ass's out of bed my self. I start to walk up the stairs and hear some whispering coming from there room, are they awake, this is kinda worrying me. I get to the top of the stairs and get closer tword there room. I hear even louder whispers now. Is something rong with one of them, did they hurt them self's some how? I open the door to see them both asleep, but julius crying in his sleep. I head tword him worried, I check his body to check if it's from some pain, nothing. I check his throat if it's him having trouble breathing, nothing. I start to think he's having a bad dream, I think of waking him up, but I feel like he'd be uncomfortable. So I guess I'll just have to let him stay home. I guess I'll just wake up selever, he knows he's still in trouble sense he didn't get out of bed, although it doesn't seem fair to me. I guess I'll just confront them in the morning. I kiss them both on the head and head out there room, back down stairs to the kitchen, I'll just clean the house until they do wake up.

                              ♦️selever♦️

I wake up feeling tired, I hear whimpering coming from julius, shit, I thought. I start rubbing his head to calm him down sense it worked for my sister. It did calm him down thankfully, he just cuddled into me more. I realize when I look out the windows, that it was morning, FUCK. MY MOM IS GONNA KILL THE BOTH OF US IF WE DON'T GET UP NOW. I was about to try and wake up julius, but he started whimpering when I started to shake him. I stoped quickly, I feel bad if I wake him, he just stoped whimpering but I made him start to again, damn't, I'm sorry juli. I start to rub his head, calming him down easily, I keep rubbing  until I was startled by something knocking at the door of my room. It was my mom, we're dead, we're gonna die, good bye world, good bye. She opens the door and starts to talk to me, calmly?

                   ♦️selever + sarvente💖

💖"Oh, good, your awake selever, can I talk to you about julius?"
♦️"How, me, not, dead?"
💖|:(
♦️"OKAY Okay! We can talk about julius, what about him, is it his whimpering?"
💖"Yes actually, Is he okay, did something happen?"
♦️"Well, I think  he might be mentally hurt, I'm not sure."
💖"Well, is there any family that can help him?"
♦️"No, he has no family, he lives alone."
💖"Poor thing, I guess I'll have the both of you stay home then, I'll need you to take care of him thru out the day okay?"
♦️"Okay mom, I'll make sure he stays happy."
💖"Alright then, I'll go down stairs and tell the school you aren't going."
♦️"Okay!"
My mom starts to head out the room, as soon as she closed the door I started to feel bad for julius. What had he bin thru to make him feel this way. I start to cuddle him more into me and rub my head against his, he starts to purr. I miss him purring, even if it makes his dumbass look weird. I keep going untill his tears stop, I feel the urge to kiss him on the head, I blush and feel very nervous to, but I did it, I leaned over and laid his head back, I then gave him a soft light kiss on his head. I can't stop myself from blushing, I hear him groan and see him start to open his eyes, DAMIT!!!

                     ♦️selever + julius♥️

♥️I start to open my eyes and I see selevers face, it looked red, my eyes haven't adjusted yet tho, so I can tell why his face is red.
♦️Shit, he's looking at me, uhh do I say something to him?
"Umm, good morning?"
♥️"Good morning? How come we're still home and not at school? Didn't you say that your mom kicks your ass if you don't get ready for school?"
♦️"Well she's letting us stay home for you sense, well, what happened."
♥️"Oh, that's why..."
♦️"You we're whimpering and crying in your sleep."
♥️...
♦️"Don't worry, will make sure you feel better okay?"
♥️"...Okay..."
♦️I cuddle julius into me making him purr like a cat again, we both ended up falling asleep again, and I felt better knowing he'll be okay here with us.

                     —to be continued—