Love at first sight(selever x julius)

Chapter 44 (I don't like myself)

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BTW: short chapter😭😭😭😭😭😭
     ⚠️WARNING:CUSSING,SELFHATE⚠️

                     ♦️selever + julius♥️

♦️I don't know why, but julius started to cry in my arms. I felt really worried for him, I didn't know what to do, or what I should say to him. I felt stupid because of it, I knew what to say to rasazey when she was upset, but not julius when he is. I started to think I was a big dumbass, I couldn't do anything to help cheer up julius, I felt useless... I couldn't say anything, I couldn't do anything, I couldn't think of anything either. I feel like it's my fault for him to even tell why he was upset, I'm so fucking stupid! I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THIS! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO FOR HIM! I FEEL LIKE THE WORST BEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD, CAN I EVEN BE CONSIDERED ONE??? I CAN'T DO ANYTHING, ANYTHING!!! I started to cry for feeling so fucking stupid, there's nothing I can say or do to help him out, I'm just sitting there frozen as he cry's into me, I feel so pathetic...
♥️I realized that selever was crying to now, I was wondering if it was because of me crying, I asked him,
"H-hey...are you okay?"
♦️"N-n-no... I feel so stupid...I started crying because I don't know how I can make you feel better...I feel like I'm the worst person ever..."
My voice starts to crack as I talk.
♥️"It's not your fault...please, don't cry..."
I hug selever tightly against me, hoping that help him calm down.
♦️"At least you know what to s-say to me, to make me feel b-better... I can't do that for you...will I ever be able to...?"
♥️"I'm not sure...it's okay if you can't, I'll be okay eventually!"
♦️"But then I feel so useless for not helping you at all...I wanna be able to... I wanna be able to help you, I wanna be able to comfort you when your upset..."
♥️"It's okay if you can't, if you feel bad for not doing anything, that's okay to! I will talk to you still! It's not like I just decided to hate you afterwards."
♦️"You do have a point..."
♥️"There we go! Your voice isn't cracking anymore! Come closer..."
Selever comes closer to me, I hug him tighter, and put his head on my chest.
♦️"I feel better now...thank you Julius...I'm sorry I made this about me..."
I cuddled into his chest so much, that we fell backwards onto my bed, I felt loved...
♥️"It's fine, don't even worry about it, when you're happy, I'm happy!"
I start to cuddle selever back with a smile, he became more calm for what I can tell. He started to lay his hold body on me, I cuddled him more into me and at that point, I was happy. We were in the possession we go in when we go to sleep together.
♦️I wanted to fall asleep on julius really badly, so I put my entire body on him. He quickly caught on and cuddled me back, in a cozy position. I started to close my eyes, and I fell asleep on him.
♥️I heard snoring from selever, not to long after we had gotten into the perfect position. I felt more happy and calm thanks to him doing so, his snores and cute face were more than enough to cheer my heart up! I started to close my eyes, and fall asleep with my beloved.

                     —to be continued—