Careful what you wish for

storm the gate and bust down the walls.

I let a stretch roll over my body from my back and into my shoulders as I opened my eyes.
I rolled over, and let out a quiet gasp.
I forgot I wasn't on my bus.
I softly get up and tip toe to the living room, making sure not to wake noah.
I sit on the couch of the bus. looking at the trees go by fast. it was so quiet. I focus on the sound of the highway beneath us, pulling my knees to my chest.
Headphones in, head on my knees.
(Song: runaway- AURORA)

I see a figure start rustling behind me.
"Have a nice nap?" I whisper. I see no one other than jolly.
"Yeah," he laughs. He sits across from me.
"I expected the other three to be up already" I say.
" no, they sleep all day, they are lazy." Jolly laughs.
"Why do I believe you," I state.
"so what's it like?" Jolly asks.
"Whats what like?" I raise my eyebrows.
"growing up practically famous." He says.
"You've got that wrong. My DAD is famous, my childhood actually fuckin sucked." I reply.
"I get that." He sat back.
"what's he really like? Noah?" I ask.
"he is like a normal kid. he isn't the same person he is on stage though. he is shy. he likes to read, cook and play tons of video games. He is Noah and that's all I can say. I think that if you want to know what he is like, then break his walls down and look for yourself." Jolly tilts his head slightly. "Shoot your shot. he does nothing but talk about you. the week after warped tour and he lost his phone, he was sad. he missed you. I promise, you've already conquered the gates, move to the walls." He winks.
"I guess you are right. But I want to be friends with all of you. you especially jolly." I smile.
"Then we are friends. with us all you have to do is ask. we think you are cool. " jolly sits back.
"We really do." I turn around and there stands folio and Rufilo.
"you guys are sweet. " I laugh. As the other boys pile in, I just watch as they talk back and fourth. They were like brothers. So close, family.

"don't worry, Noah is usually the last one awake" rufilo says.
"I didn't ask." I say surprised.
"You didn't have to. Your face said it for you" he chews his banana.
I hit him with an eye roll.
"We have about 10 more hours on the road." Folio sighs kicking back in the recliner.
I look toward the door way. It slides open.
"Jesus; you guys are loud as fuck" Noah says grumpily.
"No one asked for you to sleep ALL DAY." I laugh. "Join us in the shenanigans" I invite him.
He sits down next to me.
"How was your nap?" I ask.
"That wasn't a nap, that was a sleep" he laughs as he stretches. "It was good" he blinks slowly.
"hold on," I say. "You have sleepy stuff in your eyes"
I take my finger and get it out of his eyes dragging my thumb down his cheek. the whole bus goes practically silent. I look over to the boys and I see jolly's smile. He stands up and mouths to me "walls" and winks as he walks away.
"Thanks." Noah says. "No one has ever done that to me before"
"well that makes me the first." I smile.
"How did you sleep, I didn't ask." Noah says
"I didn't sleep long. Maybe two hours." I reply
"I'm still tired though."
"I'm starving." Noah says holding his stomach.
"bro all we have is bananas." folio says now sitting upside down in the chair.
"I doubt that." I get up to look through the pantry.
"pancakes good with you guys?" I say.
"YES." I hear in unison.
I get all the ingredients out and start making food.
"it smells so good in here." Jolly says.
"Pancake?" I ask with a plate in my hand.
"Absolutely." he takes the plate from me.
"Okay boys. breakfast." I say putting down the plates.
"you are a beautiful human." Noah looks at me.
"these are so good."
"Thanks.." i say.
I sit down next to him.
I watch them bicker like little boys.
After breakfast , we all sat around talking about the show tonight.
Creating a set list.
I hadn't been listening until I heard Noah's voice say my name.
" and I'm putting enough, enough now on the list for Lillian. "
I smiled.
"Don't change your set list for me." I say.
"I want to. It's your favorite song" He says.
"If you two are done, so is the set list- which means we have two hours to play MARIOKART" folio laughs.
I could get used to spending every day with not only Noah but with the rest of these guys too. I felt included. it was almost everything I craved. almost.