♡ crush on you♡ FXF yejisu fanfics

VII

jisu single pov

it's not that. im not crying because of love. im crying because there's side i dont know you had.

i wanna know you. i wanna stay there. but i felt the heart aching. i couldn't stop it.

you're my best feeling.

whenever you're near i felt it aches. but i cant tell if it's good or bad.its traumatic how i wanted you.

it felt nice..

all of my life. i been so popular. im not that good at everything but people claim im good. i never feel a light inside my heart.

i do attract people to myself. but why. why can't i attract you.

are you really that different from me. i want to be you. you're smart. athletic. friendly and has alot of friend.

but somehow whenever you told me that you were inlove with someone. i feel like im on edge of crying.

why should i cry though? i thought we are the same. am i crying because you are not the same or you are different?

im confused. but at the same time. oh, i met someone who is better than me. that's good. i know that.  i know there is someone better than me. but i didn't know its you.

everyday talking and voices about you. i tend to hear but ended up with you failing and failing. what's going on? what happened?

are you finally losing yourself?

yeji pov

how i felt? that's crazy. what do i feel exactly? do i feel happy? no. do i feel sad then? no.

i feel lifeless. there's so spark in me. but i want to be you. smart. Good. popular.. i wanna be with you. not you.

i wanna be with you and hold you forever with my hand. maybe im the one who is excited. Well. that's sad.

i want love that could last forever.

i dont know. i don't know am i even your worth. my last night with someone was not even good.

hey. im. thinking too much. that's it. i hate thinking. but when comes to you.. oh i hate you.

jisu pov

i hate you. for not doing anything.

why does this hard. why am i trying hard to come by you. have i ever been good enough.

well. i don't know.

yeji pov

i dont know either.

no one pov

yeji woke up on the couch. leftover and cigarettes box clean on the table. again. yeji felt nothing. she felt like there's nothing.

ryujin looked at how messed up yeji is. she couldn't bother. she left the house and yeji felt trapped.

someone need to save her. and that's

"jisu!! cmon dude. we're gonna be late!" a great friend of jisu. chaeryeong.

"sorryy I fell asleep" jisu yawned.

chaeryeong couldn't help but smile.

"who told you to stay up!! silllyy" chaeryeong force jisu too stand up. jisu groan

by then. jisu eye stunned at ryujin. her face got red. it's not love. it's like embarrassed. because of thing she told ryujin last night.

chaeryeong noticed.

"oh you like ryujin?" jisu eyes widen.

"what?! no no, we just had some cringe talk last night.. hopefully she dont remember..."
jisu sighed and chaeryeong laughed.

jisu noticed there's no yeji appearance.

"shes skipping again?" jisu mumble and chaeryeong lean closer.

"what?"

"nothing nothing!!"

and how empty both of them. there's a light but it seems to be losing hope.

a great hope.

end of chapter.