The New Student

*:ꔫ:*+ﾟThe Exact Story*:ꔫ:*

Rengoku POV:

             We went inside and I walked silently inside of Kamado's house. "You can explain the exact story when we got to our room alright? I don't feel like I can talk about it right here" Kamado said as he began to walk to our room. Once we reached the bed, I explained everything. Why I love him exactly. Why do I even love him. Some things I said well, Tried in other words were really hard to explain. Love at first sight is not easy to explain. Well, Especially if you had a.... A terrible mistake with someone else. Explaining these questions to Kamado were extremely difficult and of course not easy to explain. Once I was done explaining my story with him, I felt like passing out. I didn't feel like that was me even saying everything of what I said. "So... Kamado... What do you think about me?" I said after a while of silence. He sat there even crying knowing one of my biggest mistakes. 

One I will never remember. I broke her life and her entire existence. That's not the reason I moved here but, That story should be for another chapter. My point is, This "mistake" I made, Broke her life in shreds. At this point, When I always see snow outside I start to shed tears down my eyes. Thinking of what I did, Was truly one mistake that I will never make ever again. That promise was kept after a while after I left to go to a new place. Just where Kamado lives. I felt like I haven't talked about her in years. But, she still remains in my memory for eternity. Never leaving. Having the happiest moments in my life could easily be interrupted by the mistake I had with her. It wasn't her that made me cry, It was the mistake that would make me cry. My mistake to be exact. Leaving her alone every single hour. In the freezing cold. She would weep and cry. Without my company to make her feel better. I didn't care about her. And left her all alone. Laying on her bed dejectedly wishing I was there as she cried and cried. While me in my room still writing stories and ignoring her entire existence. I moved away as she died in the fire. Remaining one thing from her. What's that you ask? Her memory kept in my head. Forever. Her name? Yukire Hanazawa...

After Kamado heard about more about my past and how I liked him, He talked about how he liked me and, He didn't go through something so traumatizing like me so, His conversation was alright other than mine. I was glad that none of his family members died other than his father sadly but, His mother just had to get a better job. While me, I had to leave because there was a fire and we had to evacuate. But, Yuki died in the fire because she thought that she was useless. Kamado said he lost a friend cause they had to move but, Nothing else and not like there was a fire near his village. I was in relief at least to learn but, Still, Kamado still kind of cried. "I'm soo sorry Rengoku-San... I truly am..." Kamado said as he stopped crying. "Don't tell me that Kamado... It's my fault" I said dejectedly. "Don't say that Rengoku-San..." 

Kamado said as he tried to keep me company. I knew that wasn't going to do anything but I at least appreciated it. "Rengoku-San... What do you want from me? Do you need a hug? Do you wanna go buy some food? Go for a walk? Look, Rengoku-San, The only real thing I can really do is try to make you feel better and, If I can't do that then, I just think I'm useless. If I can only hear you then, What can I say back?" Kamado said as he tried to make me feel better. 

"It's alright Kamado... If you're hungry, We can go somewhere but, I'm fine with doing anything. I just want to get my mind off of this very deep conversation. Considering I brought it up, It's my fault. Thank you Kamado. I appreciate you're company" I said as I got close to Kamado and sat pretty close to him. "You don't have to thank me Rengoku-San... Please, Can we got eat somewhere! I'm starving!" Kamado said as he held my hand and stood up. 

"Of course Kamado! Let's go!" I said as I walked down the stairs to the door and then outside. "Rengoku-San, You're not just going to run are you? It's pretty far away.. Look, Maybe we can... We can..." Kamado said as he tried to come up with what we can do. "It's alright Kamado, If you don't want me to carry you then, That's totally alright" I said as I looked at me directly. "No, It's totally fine! Plus, I don't know if I had that much stamina to run this far, I know you have you're ability but, Mine is not for running this far!" Kamado said as he tried to explain. I smiled in response and said, "I love you so much Kamado" "I love you to Rengoku-San!" Kamado said as he kissed my cheek. I still had my big smile on my face and stayed happy. "You know Kamado, I didn't know you would think all of that about me. Was I really that special to you? I guess I know why but, I never knew I had such good traits. I guess I do look very negative don't I?" I said as I asked Kamado. "I guess you do. Still, For a person like you, I thought you would look at yourself and think of how great you are. I mean, Look at yourself!" Kamado said as he touched my hair. "Aww... Thank you Kamado... Like I mean, I guess I need to practice self positive talk or whatever shit right?" I said as I kept smiling. "Yeah, I need to too" Kamado said as we saw the restaurant in all of it's beauty. "HEY! YOU TWO! GUYS! GET THOSE TWO RASCALS!!"