The New Student

What I think 🌺

Tanjiro POV:

       I can't blame her. She was once like me. Just as clueless and indecisive as I am. But, the only thing I wanna ask her is, why she isn't as soft as she used to be? Why is it that she has turned into this murderer monster? Dose she try to not be soft? What's the case? I hate how she always calls me and Rengoku-San stupid names but, I can tell she's only teasing us. Dose she know what it feels like to be called princess? To be the soft one? To be a princess stuck in a cage that always needs to be saved? Yes. She probably has. I can tell she probably feels bad about it as well. This is only a assumption since I only know a bit about her. Maybe she dose? These things I ask myself only make me more confused and more mad. When she calls me Ms. Perfect or Princess, It makes me feel useless.

 Who wants to be useless? Who wants to be always saved? No one. To fight. To be brave. Is something I never got. Sure, I might be brave and, I may step up to challenges to beat someone but, I always need help. And, even most of the time, their the one's who end up saving me. They have to pick up the trace and mess I made. I don't wanna do that. Rengoku-San, you don't have to save me. If you really want to then, I wont have a problem but, know I won't be happy with you're decision. Like I mean, what am I saying? You're suppose to save me in this relationship right? The boy is suppose to protect the girl right? I don't want that. But I just can't let everything go my way. What have I've done to you're life Rengoku-San? I helped you. I trusted you. And most importantly I loved you. What other thing can I give you, right? One thing you'll never get out of me is strength. Something I entirely lame and terrible at. What are cat scratches do to an enemy? I'm nothing but a wretched nightmare right? Such, such! a monster-

"Kamado! You've been sitting here for 30 minutes!" Rengoku-San said as he looked down at me. "I apologize, please, I'll explain everything I'm thinking" I said as I snapped out of it. I said what I thought. Like normal. He heard me and, he of course didn't look happy. "She must've gone through that to. But, Kamado, you're not useless. You're not a monster. Hinokami Kagura has been passed down from centuries and you're part of it! This ability that you have has a lot of power. Trust me, don't think of yourself like this" Rengoku-San said as he kept me company at least. "If I can't do any techniques other than the dance, what's the point Rengoku-San?" I said as I looked at Rengoku-San. "We can learn about it just like I did with flame breathing! Not right now though, It's really dark outside" Rengoku-San said as he held my hand and smiled at me. "If I can't fight then, I'll die. I'll die in regret. Devastation. And dejectedness. Then what was my point of living? What have I've done to you that made you're life a true heaven? Nothing, let me guess? I'll make sure to follow everything you tell me Rengoku-San. I don't want you to be disappointed in me. In fact, I hope I never disappoint you. Rengoku-San, Hanazawa-San has been bothering me for a while. Every single day I don't see a change. The flowers don't grow. They keep on dying out. Every single day. It always gets worse. Me and Hanazawa-San have a really bad bond that, I don't think can really change. I'm always mad at her. She's always talks like a freaking Terry Silver from Cobra Kai! I can't help but to punch her or kick her in her face. 

When I think of Hanazawa-San, I think of the horrible mistakes and things I said to her. The pain she made me go through when we were running, It made my body ache to death! She's to fast. She's better than me. But, I know she's not perfect. But, I can't help but think of so many things I can do that she can outstand better than me. All of her nicknames like for example, "Ms. Perfect and Princess" I'm always sick of. No matter what I do. No matter what I say. She'll always beat me" I said as I laid down on my side of the bed. I looked out the window devastated as if I've done something terrible. Rengoku-San looks at me and says, "No matter what you think I won't think like you do. I won't look at you're flaws Kamado. Do you know how many times you helped me? If you weren't here for me, I would've lost my way, in every single place I would go. You helped me understand love and the desire I had for you. I can't thank you enough for what you have done for me. Therefore, I will never think of all of you're flaws. You're respectful and cute nature really makes me love you for who you really are. I'm able to tell what you're even thinking sometimes! Well, about Hanazawa-San... I know you two may not be... Let's just say, good teammates but, you can change that. Just be the kind and respectful person you are Kamado. Don't kick her or punch her. Just think before you act." 

Rengoku-San said as he laid down next to me. He turned me around for me to see his face. It was charming as normal as he smiled at me. I smiled back as I felt a bit better. "I know I might've said this before but, have I ever told you how much you make me feel better?" I said as I went up and hugged him. He made me feel so warm as I put my arms around his neck and looked up at him to see his face. 

WARNING! SMUT WORDS INVOLVED IN THIS/(THESE) PARAGRAPH(S)

"Yes. You have said that... My Little Flame" Rengoku-San said as he looked down at me and still smiled. His smile seemed very happy as normal but, at the same time, he sounded a bit turned on. "Are you horny Rengoku-San? You want me to... Lick that dick of yours?" I said as I looked at him a bit lustfully. "Maybe... Just, not when I'm sleeping, Haha!" Rengoku-San said as he sounded normal. "Are you... Alright My Love? I can't tell what you're feeling" I said as I was way to confused. "I'm just fine My little Flame, as for you, you seem a little horny Kamado... Would you like me to...." Rengoku-San said as he winked and licked his lips. I moaned softly as I shoved my face in Rengoku-San's chest to calm myself down. "You can say it darling... I don't want you to sleep feeling horny. You're gonna get a wet dream" Rengoku-San said as he turned off my lamp light and opened the curtains for at least a little light. I know that me and Rengoku-San really don't like light as much so, I knew what he was trying to do. He sat me up and took off my shirt. Pants to socks, everything was already off. Everything. "Can I take t-this o-o~off for you?" I said as I moaned in between my words and mumbled. "Of course... My Little Flame" Rengoku-San said as he left me to unbutton his shirt. Once all of the buttons were unfastened, I took his shirt off completely. I panted and gasped as my face felt like it was getting warmer and warmer. For some reason, I felt like something bad was going to happen, and, I guess I was right. 

SMUT END

"I swear.... You little whore.... I may look like one but, I'm not actually one. I can tell you wanna kill her. But that doesn't mean I'm on you're side!! Guys!! GET THESE BITCHES!"