Love's a Weird Thing

StillBirth

*TW: mentions of blood, stillbirth, miscarriage, and infant loss.*

"When I was 20, I was married to a bloke called Tom Faulkner. 3 weeks after the wedding, I told him I was pregnant and about 12 weeks. He was a bit pissed about me holding back that information but understood why. Well it was a couple of days before my 21st birthday and I was 8 months pregnant..." She starts to tear up and choke on her words.

Jack grabs her shoulder and squeezes it then moves his stool closes to her and puts his arm around her.

"...I went to the bathroom then I noticed blood on my underwear and I instantly panic." Nikki continues, "I ran out the bathroom, hysterical and Tom asked what was wrong. I told him and he immediately starts his car and rushes me to hospital. During the drive, I was struck with the most horrific of cramps and contractions. We arrive at the hospital and they immediately take me to the deliver ward. There, I gave birth to a tiny, stillborn baby girl. My heart shattered into a million pieces but instead of comforting me, Tom blamed me for it and walked out on me. I spent my 21st birthday in hospital, alone and heartbroken. When I arrived home later that day, I went numb and on autopilot. I just went upstairs and cried for days. I hardly ate and barely drank for 3 days staight. I was just so numb and weak to do anything. All I wanted was to hold my little girl again. And to add more to the heartbreak, a couple of weeks later, divorce papers came through my letterbox. When I told Matt he just laughed in my face and blamed me too. He said Tom was right to walk out on me. Then he went on about how I would fail as a mother because I had a traumatic childhood and how if I ever got pregnant with his kid and it survived, he would take them away from me to America where they would be safe with him and not me." Nikki burst out into tears.

Jack stood up and hugged her tighter then ever.
"Niks, I'm so sorry that happened to you. This Tom bloke and Matt are both bastards and if I ever see them they will be sorry." Jack exclaims. Nikki cries into his chest then looks up at him with teary eyes.

"There's one more thing..." She sniffs.
"There's more! Jeez, Nikki sounds like you've had it rough." Jack says, sadly.

"When me and Matt broke up a few weeks back, you know when we first got together, I told him how a couple of months back, I found out I was pregnant again but with his kid but unfortunately miscarried the day I was gonna tell him. That made him blow up at me, he said that how it's my fault I miscarried and how he never loved me and how he had a woman back in America he had been seeing then how he wants to break up with me. So I yelled back at him, kicked him out and threw all of his clothes and the photos of me and him away."

Nikki continues to cry as streams of tears wet Jack's bare chest.
"Hey, shush it's okay." Jack strokes her hair then grabs her shoulders and move her off his chest in front of him.

"None of this is your fault. They are both arseholes who can't keep their dicks to themselves. You, Nikki, will make a wonderful mum one day and when that chance happens, we will both get through it and learn together. Okay, darlin'."

Nikki nods, gently then starts to cry again.
"Hey, come here." Jack pulls her back into a hug. "Right, let's finish up breakfast then get to work hey." He cups her face and wipes her tears away. Nikki nods in his hand, then glances at the time on the oven clock.

"Shit it's nearly 8am, we are gonna be late!" She exclaims as wipes the rest of her tears away, finishes her breakfast then runs upstairs, tripping up a step by accident.

"Fuck!" She cries as Jack rushes upstairs to help her up. "Shit my knee is bleeding." She touched her left knee that was covered in blood and rolls her eyes.
"Let's get you cleaned and patched up shall we." Jack chuckles, slightly at Nikki's eagerness.

He grabs Nikki's arm and drapes it across his shoulders and helps her to her room. He grabs the first aid kid from Nikki's en suite and patches up the cut on her left knee. He kisses it better. Nikki squirms as he kisses around the now patched up wounded knee.

"Stop it, we need to get dressed." She giggles.

"Fine." He stops and walks over to the pile of clothes he left there the previous time he was there. He pulls on his trousers and buckles up the belt. He puts on his t-shirt, sit on the bed and waits patiently for Nikki to get ready.

She puts on some black skinny jeans and throws on a sheer, floral, navy blouse. She brushes out her brunette hair and leaves it down. She puts on her makeup and spritz a couple of pumps of a fruity perfume she bought a couple of weeks ago.

Jack watches in awe as he stares at how perfect she is. She puts in some gold hoop hugger earrings, a necklace with a heart charm on and a couple of brackets on.

"I'm ready." Nikki states as she turns around and looks at Jack.
"You are so beautiful, Nikki." He walks up to her and kisses her. "What have I done to deserve you, aye."

She giggles as she wriggles away from his hug and grabs her healed boots to put on. She sits on her bed and slides her boots on. Then she stands up, walks over to Jack and kisses him again.

"Come on let's get going before we are extremely late to work." She chuckles as she grabs Jack's hand and walks downstairs.

Jack puts on his shoes that were next to the front door while Nikki grabs her purse and coat from the hook and grabs her house and car keys from hook next to it.

"My car or yours?" She asks.
"Yours." Jack smiles, walking up to her and kisses her.

She unlocks her front door, walks out followed by Jack then locks it back up. She clicks her car keys to open her car and gets into the driver seat. Jack opens the passenger door and get into the passenger seat.

She turns on her car, clicks on the radio and they head to work.