five minutes after jj and auggie stop arguing rafe has to drive by. "hey auggie your looking hot as always"*winks*-rafe
"fuck you rafe"-auggie
"you already did"-rafe
auggie stay quiet
everyone hates rafe but mostly auggie no one know this not even jj but a few months ago auggie went down to the ocean since it's her favorite place she went down to her spot that rafe apparently found and she was upset about that because it was hidden very quiet no one could see it so she was upset and rafe was flirting with her and putting his hand on her thighs and when she got up to leave he grabbed her and said "and where do you think your going pretty girl" then shoved her to the ground raped her then knocked her unconscious then raped her again and just played with her body in gross ways while she was unconscious she knows this because technically the spot on the beach is on figure 8 so there's police cameras they saw it happend and asked auggie if she wanted to press charges she said yes and then he got bailed out by his daddy and she is forever mad that he took her virginity.
"woahh what"-john b says shocked at what rafe had just said
"yea uhm js there something you forgot to mention to me auggie?"-kie asked annoyed that her friend didn't tell her
"leave it be"-auggie said upset
"LEAVE IT BE YOU FUCKED RAFE???"-john b said really angry for some reason
"HE TRIED TO KILL ME AUGGIE AND YOUR FUCKING HIM?"-john b
"...." auggie didn't say anything but neither did anyone else
"OH NOW YOU HAVE NOTHING TO SAW HUH??-john b
"leave her alone"-pope said upset with all the yelling
"NO BECAUSE SHES THE ONE SCREWING US OVER I BET SHE TOLD HIM EVERYTHING ABOUT THE GOLD WHILE SHE WAS FUCKING HIM"-john b
"i didn't want to"-auggie said really quite looking down with tears in her eyes
"OH YOU DIDNT WANT TO YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THAT BULL SHIT!"
"I WAS RAPED OKAY!"
"i was raped"-auggie
silence
nobody said anything but just one tear fell from auggies eye she looked at jj and his eyes were full of tears she jumped into the water and started swimming toward shore she didn't care how far it was she didn't want to see anyone right now she needed to be alone
"LOOK WHAT YOU FUCKING DID JOHN B DO YOU KNOW EVERYTHING SHES GONE THROUGH SHES GONE THROUGHT EVERYTHING WE GO THROUGH TIMES 12"-jj said yelling at john b
kiara is sobbing and pope is comforting her and john b is just standing there not saying anything
"move out my way we are going to find her"-jj said making his way toward the wheel of the boat
"no jj she wants to be alone i can tell"-kie said sobbing
"your right"-jj said sadly
so instead jj just texted her
"hey bitch sorry about
john b i can't believe he
fucking said that im sorry
i'm here if you need me
you know where you can
find me i'll be there till 10
bye bitch"- jj
auggie just responded by saying
"hey asshole don't worry about it
you weren't the one who said
it but if it's okay i do wnat to
tell you what happened that
night but first i need to get high
so it's not actually me who's
talking bring a blunt and come
to our spot i'll be waiting
bye dick head"- auggie
"copy that blunt is on its way
see you soon"-jj
while auggie is waiting for jj to get to there spot which is just a huge tree facing the ocean with handing vines she gets lost in her thought she was nervous
"i don't know why i am so nervous it's jj i tell him everything but this was different i mean it only happened a few months ago but there's another thing i haven't told him it's about the burning and cutting i always wear my denim shorts weather i'm in or out the water so it covers it but i don't know i think i'm more nervous of what rafe through when he saw them or if he even cared but i just don't want rafe telling anyone. but i don't know if i'm ready to tell jj yet because he'll get really mad because i'm already black and bruised from my dad and i'm sure the pouges know why i come to the chateau with new black eyes and limping or out of breathe but i never told them i just guessed that they know because they don't ask well i mean they do ask every like months but i just don't answer and change the topic or jj steps in telling them to stop or whatever he says but it works but there getting more suspicious i don't know what they'll say or do when i tell them.. if i tell them and i need to go home soon my dad is actually going to kill me because i didn't complete the mission and because i haven't come home i am actually dead and i wonder if jj js gonna ask about me pointing a gun to him it broke me to do that but my dad has me wrapped around his finger so badly and it's not even my fault then i realized that i couldn't live without jj so i pointed the gun to myself i've tried killing myself 2 time but my dad always comes and get me "the help i need" so it wasn't the first time i've held a gun to my head but it's whatever and jj only knows about 1 of the 2 attempts but idk i think about it a lot you know like you get a problem free life and be happy but here it's almost impossible to be happy i hate knowing that one day i'm gonna look back and i'm going to remember how shitty my childhood was im hoping i won't remember most of it because it's not worth using my memory for but i was thinking about telling jj and the whole rape thing, the 2nd attempt, the self harm, and why my mom killed herself but i don't know i feel bad putting all that pressure on to him and don't get me wrong he dumps all his on me too so it's like we share problems but i still feel bad."-auggie
"hey bitch got the blunt let's start our therapy session"-jj
that's what they called there little deep conversation meet ups
"really fast j before we start i gotta warn you there's a lot of shit i haven't told you yet so don't flip out on me okay?"-auggie
"don't worry aug i got you"-jj
they smoke the blunt until there high of there minds
jj always goes first always he always has and always will. he didn't really have much to say this time because there last one was only a week ago so nothing much has changed with him expect his dad bc thats always changing.
now it's auggies turn
"okay jayj you ready?"
"of course vent go"
"i don't even know where to start let's start rafe" she tells jj about what happens with rafe but since you already know i'm not explain but again
"the time i tried to kill myself okay well the night i was raped by rafe i tried to kill myself again and i didn't try to overdose because that didn't work the first time but this time it was with a gun i had the gun to my head when i clicked safety off my dad heard it and came running to the bathroom and as soon as the bathroom door opened and he reached his hand out for the gun i pulled the trigger but my dad had hit the gun to where it only shot my stomache which as you know doesn't kill you unless you blead out but that didn't happend because my dad took my to the hospital and that's why i was missing for a month from you guys"- auggie finished saying but took a deep breath because she was talking really fast
"auggie" jj started to say but was cut off by auggie
"wait im not done there more"-a
"there's more?"-jj asked concerned
"so i also uhm self harm and before you say anything i will show you"
jj looks at her with tears down his face he couldn't believe that she was doing that to herself he thought it couldn't get worse until she showed him
dried up blood and deep burn marks all over across her waist and thighs jj was just very gently touching them to see they were real he couldn't believe it
kie walked over to them while she was showing jj
"omfg auggie"
auggie hides them fast
"hey kie"-auggie says as she wipes her tears
"i'm sorry but can i catch you later were talking please?"-a
"yea okay"-kie
jj is bawling his eyes out in his hands
she then tells jj why her mom killed herself
they just talk about everything then wake up the next morning like it's fine nothing happened but this time it's was different everytime she wore shorts he would try and see if the got worse or if they were healing he never saw them heal he only saw them get worse. yesterday they went down to the beach and when she got in the water she reopened a few of the cuts and they were bleeding a lot like you had to hold it down to stop the blood he was so heart broken by it but he still hates her and she still hates him
"hey pope don't you notice that jj and auggie have been hating eachother a lot more than they normally do?"-kie
"yea i mean they normally argue but never how they are now it's like they actually hate eachother it's weird"-pope
"i'm gonna play there song and see if they do anything"-kie
kie plays the song and auggie looks at jj clearly wanting to make eye contact but he didn't look up from his phone so auggie just mouthed the words and sang them to herself
"alabama Arkansas i do love my ma and pa not the way that i do love you" her eyes get watery
"ima use the restroom"auggie said clearly on the verge of crying but they let her be
it's been a weeks since she's been home
"okay well bye guys goodnight"-a
"where the hell are you going?"-jj
"im going to my house"-a
"the hell you are"-jj
"listen j i haven't been home in 3 weeks if i don't come home i'll be even more screwed."
"okay but deadass"-jj
"hey look in my eyes (she looks) be fucking careful and you call me at 12 am and if you don't i will be at your house so don't think i won't be."
"i will be j don't worry"-auggie
