Forever Yours

Chapter 6

Jules. He is all I can think about as I walk through the paddock. How the hell am I going to explain to him who Charles is? How will he react? What if they don't get along? So many questions are coming to my mind that I can feel myself getting overwhelmed.

I reach the Red Bull garage and see that the team is starting to take everything down. In the corner of the room, I see Sebastian sitting on a bench with Jules on his lap, asleep. Poor little guy. After all that has happened today, I fear that he has become traumatized and will never want to come back again. I approach Sebastian and give him a weak smile.

"Hey," I say

"Hey," He looks up at me " I tried keeping him awake but he just gave out." He says with a little laugh.

"It's ok, thank you for staying with him."

"No worries, I could tell that you and Charles still had unfinished business to talk about and didn't want Jules to hear it."

"About that-" I go to say

"Not here Flo. Let me give you guys a ride back home, Ok? Then we can talk." He says as he gives me a closed smile.

"Ok" is all I can say back.

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I watch as Sebastian tucks Jules into bed and gives him a kiss on the forehead.

The drive home was horrible. Sebastian didn't say a single word to me the whole way back. I could tell that he was upset and hurt. I should have told him about Charles and the fact that he was Jules' father, but I didn't. I was too ashamed. Ashamed to tell him that I ran away from someone that I thought loved me, but didn't. I didn't want him to see me as a coward.

Sebastian has been by my side since day one. He was always checking in on me, asking me how my pregnancy was going, showing me around Italy, and he would even come over at times to cook for me whenever I wasn't feeling good enough to get out of bed. He and one of our other friends, Federico, helped set up Jules' nursery before he came. Sebastian was even the one who took me to the hospital when I went into labor.

He was there for me through it all, so the least I could have done was tell him the truth about my past. But I simply didn't.

He goes out of Jules' room and walks past me without even saying a word.

"Sebas-"

"In the kitchen. So we don't wake him." He says as he disappears down the hall. I follow him into the kitchen and we both sit at the table.

" Seb-"

"You could have told me you know." He looks up and into my eyes. " You could have told me that Charles' was Jules' dad. You said that Jules' father wanted nothing to do with you or Jules. But by the looks of it, Florence, he didn't even know." He looks at me with pain in his eyes.

"Why did you lie to me? Do you really not trust me enough after all these years to tell me the truth? How do you think Jules is going to react to this news? By Charles' reaction today, I highly doubt he will just leave after this."

"I'm sorry, Bash, I really am." I look him directly in the eyes.

I reach for his hands and hold them in between my own. "I was scared of what you would think of me. I was scared that you would see me as a coward for leaving but I didn't want to live a life with him where I didn't feel loved or appreciated. That is why I left him. I came here to Italy and wanted to start fresh and when I met everyone here, I didn't want to bring all that baggage with me. So I lied. And for that I am sorry. But I also did what I thought was best for Jules, I didn't want him growing up in a place where he didn't feel like he was loved, not fully. So for Jules' sake, I'm glad I did what I did. Now that Charles knows about him, I'm sure he will want to meet Jules and we'll see what happens after that." I finish saying.