M Y W O R L D | Sykean

6

I didn't talk to Matt for the rest of the day.
During the concert I didn't even walk in his direction, on the way to the practice, during the practice, on our way back to the hotel and in the hotel room I ignored him and didn't even look at him.
It hurt me but he didn't seem to want to talk to me either...
I knew if I DID talk to him I needed to ask him about that statement from yesterday eventually and I was honestly scared that we would be ending up fighting.
That's the last thing I wanted.
Gosh, why couldn't everything be normal again, before I let this stupid thing slip out?? Couldn't I watch my mouth some more?
I'm so sure that he hates me now, or worse, he's now disgusted of me...
I sighed in frustration, walking along the corridor back to our shared room.
Since it was 1 am and I was craving for a midnight snack I snuck out to the vending machine to buy myself a bag of chips along with a sugar-free soda.

I opened the door just to run into Matthew.
This shit just hurt man.
"hey uhm, you okay?", I asked him offering him my hand for him to stand up.
"N-no I'm f-fine."
He fucking stuttered, did this hit him so hard?
I needed to take control of this situation, regardless of how much I was avoiding this conversation.

"I-I need to go, see ya Oliver", he mumbled trying to pass me butt I held him back.
Plus, he called me Oliver, he barely does that.

"No Matthew, we need to talk this shit out!", I emphasized his name to show him how angry I was.

"No, everything but this!", he tried to run but I was stronger than him.

"Matthew Kean! Stop this right now, I know you're angry with me but we can't solve our problems if we don't talk this out!"
Fuck, I didn't want to scream him...
He looked at me with a scared expression...
I'm so sorry Matt, I love you.

"I'm - I'm sorry, it's just... You're the most important person, the most precious being in my life... I don't want you to go or fight with you so please... Let's settle this..."
I got silent at the end of my sentence and I loosened my grip around his wrist.

After a long time of silence I decided to speak up and let it be...

"O-Okay Matt, I see you don't want to talk to me... I'm sorry, I'll take another room for the rest of the night... Good night, I still love you..."
I couldn't resist but I put my hand at his neck to pull him into my chest and I kissed the top of his head.
Before the tears, witch were forming once again in my eyes, fell down, I let him go and walked up to the reception to ask for another room.

"Uhm... Could I... Could I get a new room please?"
I kept my head low so the lady behind the desk wouldn't notice my childish crying.

"May I ask you why you would like to have another room? Are there any inconveniences?", she asked nicely.

"N-not really... It's just a... Dispute between someone... And me.", I whispered, wiping the tears away.

"Hey, are you alright?"
Her voice sounded worried and soft.
Fuck, she noticed.

yeah.. I am."

"I'm sorry to interfere with your business... But I don't think that everything is alright with you... Do you want to talk?"

Fuck it.

"Actually, yes please..." now I couldn't stop the tears anymore but I didn't care.

"Let's get you a new room to talk then..."

I followed her happily.

"what's your name by the way?", she asked nicely.

"O-Oliver, and yours?"

"Alissa, nice to meet you"

"Nice to meet you, too"

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As soon as we arrived in my new room for the night, I started telling her anything and everything.
From my feelings for Matt till the situation right now.
She was very comforting and friendly.

"You know... Maybe you should give him some more time to think... I mean a kiss isn't something to take easygoing. But still, I think he still likes you... And who knows, maybe he's got at least a little thing for you", she said winking.

Wow, she's really good at this.

"Thank you, Alissa, that's really helpful." I smiled at her.

God, she was truly beautiful...
Her hazel eyes and beautiful long dark hair... Not to forget her pale skin and full lips.
I would certainly fall for her if it wasn't for Matt...
Hey, maybe I should try forgetting him with her... But that would be wrong, and I would just hurt her.
Nope, not a good solution.

After she went back to continue her night-shift, I laid down in my bed and put some music on.
We exchanged numbers, just in case, she said.

As I thought of Matthew and what has happened today, I slowly drifted off to sleep, dreaming of Matt.

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