M Y W O R L D | Sykean

7

Weeks passed and like everything, our world tour also came to an end.
We've been traveling for 2 months, visiting every continent. We've been to Japan, Amerika, India, Germany and Sweden, Australia, China and many other countrys.
It was so awesome.
The band and me, we loved our fans more than anything, they were making me feel alive, making me feel like there are people who didn't hate me, no, who loved me!
For real, I truly loved going on tour to reward our precious fans.

But there was just one thing that made me hate everything.
Hate our concerts, hate the way I was, hate myself but mostly hate to be still alive.
And this thing was that Matt and I couldn't work things out.
I was heart broken, I laid in my bed -we were in shettfield again when I recieved the news-crying my eyes out, not eating or drinking anything; I could barely leave my bed, and I was doing it all day long every day!
Well, I got a terrible message from Jordan last week...

Flashback :

It was a beautiful day as I walked along with Alissa, who was visiting her grandma, who just appeared to live here, too, along a beautiful path in one of our beautiful gardens.
The sun was shining so brightly, we even needed sunglasses and the temperature was also pretty warm for April...
Anyways, as we were laughing over a stupid joke I made, Jordan came speeding up to me with a rather sad expression.

"Hey Oli I need to tell you something, it's very important!", He was visibly out of breath.

"What is it, is everything alright?"

"Alissa... Could you... Maybe like go? This is kind of personal...", Jordan stuttered.

"Oh okay, that's fine, see you Oli!", she waved me goodbye and walked along alone.

"Jordan, what's up you seem upset?"

"Bro, you won't believe it, Matt is going!"

What?
What exactly does he mean, where's he going and why is he so upset about it?

"Uh I lost you, where's he going and why is he going?"

He sighed as he asked me to sit down on the bench beside us.
Okay, this was serious...

"You see, Matt told me he had some... Personal problems... And he needed space and time for himself...", Jordan began.

"What do you mean?"

"Well, he needs a break... From all of this; the band, the tours, the music... And... From... Oh god, from you!", he litteraly screamed that last part.

What the actual fuck?
What was this shit?
Was Matt playing some stupid games with me??
Was he kidding?!

"Uh- dude, what?? He never told me anything about this! Woah he didn't even mention anything like that! This is coming out of the blue!"

"Uhm Oliver... Didn't you notice that you two didn't talk to each other in like ages? You stopped at our second stop during the tour!", he took a deep breath, "about that, I wanted to ask you.. What the fuck is happening between you two? You were best of friends, what happened? He seemed so absent and sad ever since you stopped talking to him, do you even realize what you're doing to him?!"

I thought... He was right... Once again I failed to be his friend, instead, I was being selfish as always and running from my problems... God I'm so stupid...

"Jordan... I didn't mean to... You see, there was this incident, and then I found this thing and he seemed mad about me finding it and then he stopped talking to me but I wanted to make things up with him but he didn't let my talk to him so I gave up and kinda avoided him! I'm so so sorry!", I just rambled and told him everything!