Fatigue
Tired
A wash of dizziness watering over you like a wave
The inevitable blood to come awaits you.
Feel the tears prickling more than usual
You wait
Continue
And smile
More angry than before
Suddenly more drowsy
It doesn't come
Late
Two months late
And suddenly, I can't accept myself anymore
Something's wrong with me for experiencing something odd
It's wrong
Needing to be perfect, i can't let my body process
I judge it instead and my body like an avalanche reacts immediately, cascading my body into tension, tightening of the bones, skin, shoulder and neck, can no longer breath, my stomach less full than before
But I must relax
Ease in
It's okay
I don't need to be perfect
Get it all the way, right now
Understand
It's okay to not know
The unknown is inevitable and perfection isn't to be discovered
I might be fatigue, more tired and irritated, causally tensing up and thinking the worst, but I'm learning. And I keep learning
I can do anything
No need to worry
The unknown is part of life, perfection isn't the goal
Learn to accept myself
My curves, my fears and doubts
My smiles, and impulses
My laughs, moves, and poses
The delay, the unknowing, the imperfections.
Not knowing is okay, things going off plan is okay, delay is just some time for a break and listen - it's okay
Is okay!
It's okay!
Two months late
I'm still growing
Accept my body and we continue on
It's okay
No need to be perfect
All of my moods, all of my stages, all of my emotions, my thoughts, my judgments, my love and fear. Accept it all and grow and change and love and it's okay!
Learn
It's okay
Right now- I'm perfect in this unknown, in this time
There's no such thing as a perfect way to be. My body is processing and it isn't late at all... It's right on time, living it's life and providing for me in the best, most perfect and unknown way.
It's okay
I accept myself
It's okay
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