Only Time Will Tell

Chapter 7

ariana: enough about him .. how are you? i see you with more spunk more light mom?

she smiled at her and looked at lil adrian

alicia: hes what i needed

ariana: what do you mean?

alicia: i wanted him to be here before i made my next step.. you have to be strong ariana you have him he needs you the most .. i was holding on so i could have this moment to hold him and talk to him but im tired my love time is coming

ariana sat there with tears in her eyes

ariana: but i still need you? he needs you mom? please listen to the doctors?

maria: shes made her decision we been arguing trust me mija

alicia: i dont wanna hear it anymore its my choice i signed off on it all your tio knows what i want done ok.. please ariana im tired mija i deserve to rest

ariana: but i need you?

alicia handed her back her son

alicia: when you look at him think of me .. ill be with you both always i promise babygirl please be strong he needs you more than you need me

ariana: ill forever need you mom .. forever

she sat there the rest of the night she didnt leave her side

joe: go to bed

ariana: no adrians in his bassinet im right here its fine i dont wanna leave her side she fell asleep at 7 its 2 she hasn't moved or anything i wanna be by her side i have to be

joe grabbed a chair and sat down with her and grabbed her hand ..

maria: her heart rate is slowing down mijo get my rosary please?

he nodded and went to get it

ariana: nana you should've forced her to get the treatment? why didnt you help me?

maria: i yelled at her so hard when i heard what she had done .. the doctors told her there was no hope the chemo would let her live a couple more months but she would be sick and bed written and no one deserves to live like that

ariana sat down next to her mother and hugged her as she cried

ariana: why didnt you tell me..

maria: she was waiting for adrian to be born she didnt want you to go into labor she didnt wanna break your heart more .. im sorry mija im just glad she brought you home

she nodded and hugged her as joe came back in with the heart monitor .. ariana got herself up as she heard adrian start crying she grabbed him and held him

maria: shes gone.. joe call the ambulance ill get her dnr papers

joe stepped back

ariana: tio?

she walked up to him he grabbed her and hugged her and adrian .. he tried hard to hold in his tears she pushed him back and looked at him

ariana: if i have to be strong you do to.. you have us shes still here

he nodded and hugged her again ..

joe: sit down babygirl i dont want you to get hurt ok? i got it from here

ariana: ok..

she turned to her mom and kissed her head

ariana: i love you .. thank you for everything you've done ill make you proud mom i promise

she kissed her head again and walked away crying .. she went to the living room and sat down with her baby boy she saw her phone go off

clyde- ariana?

she didnt know the number

ariana- whos asking?

clyde- its clyde can i call you?

ariana- why are you texting me where are you?

clyde- i got out they let half of us out for over crowding but i got stuck out here for a week or two can i call you?

ariana- this isn't a good moment um but we need to talk its important

clyde- everything ok?

ariana- my moms gone.. shes gone clyde

he started to call her .. she wouldn't answer

clyde- ariana please babygirl im sorry im so sorry ill get to you as soon as i can your not alone

ariana- i know im not alone and thats something we have to talk about .. please be safe please be good and come home to your mom and family ok?

clyde- are you alone whos there with you?

ariana- my nana and tio im not alone .. ill be ok i think

clyde- your the strongest person i know you kept me strong in some of my darkest days im here for you babygirl i promise ill be home soon

ariana- your going to hate me .. but know i love you and im sorry clyde i am

clyde- what are you talking about why would i hate you ariana dont talk like that i love you and always will ill be home soon i promise you babygirl

she put her phone aside and sat there with her baby boy as the the emts walked in ..

marcos: ariana?

she turned and looked at him coldy

marcos: are you ok?

she shook her head and looked down he sat down with her and hugged her tight as she cried and craddled her baby

marcos: its going to be ok..

ariana: i dont know if ill ever be ok but i have to be ok for him .. i have to

marcos: yea you do .. i got you though do you need anything have you ate?

ariana: i ate i fed him and changed him i just wanna go lay down with him it'll be ok ill be ok

she got herself up he got up and followed her

marcos: i dont think you should be alone you dont wanna tell her goodbye?

ariana: i already told her goodbye i wanna remember her warm thats all i want

marcos: ok i understand

she took adrian to her room and laid down with him ..

clyde- dont leave me on read you got me worried im in a half way i cant leave?

ariana- alots going on and im tired im gonna go to sleep im ok dont stress yourself out and i only said your going to hate me because i kept a big secret from you and i shouldn't i should've told you..

clyde- ill never hate you we're all human babygirl