Virgin ·˚ ༘₊▯TAEKOOK▯

7

Title :- Nothing always stays the same .

Almost a month passed by , Taehyung still was not ok . His heart was getting crushed every single day witnessing how his thoughts were getting the best of him and it was hurting like hell , He is too much anxious these days .

He was in his class scribbling on the notebook as he ain't interested in anything else , yoongi was absent because his dad wants him to meet some business partners , taehyung doesn't get it why will someone would even want their teenager child to meet A - class businessmen , he was engrosed in his own world that's when he heard the clicking sound of heels , his ears perked as he can never in his life forget this familiar sound which is made by the jet black highly modified "DAVID STONES" .

He averted his gaze towards the door , his eyes longing for the "ONE AND ONLY" hope of his life . He was patiently seated in his chair but was squirming every second , the moments felt like years to him . He opened his book and kept his gaze fixed on it , in the next moment he heard everyone shifting in their places and greeting their "MATHS PROFESSOR" . He hung his head low as his heart was thumping in his chest , with a GOOD MORNING CLASS from the professor everyone sat in their places giving all their attention to the cold professor .

Taehyung was still squirming in his seat , he was confused too why he is feeling too nervous . Its not that the professor is new or he didn't met him before but still he was feeling as if this is his first day and now when yoongi is absent just for a day he realized , he doesn't have any genuine friend . Indeed he is a social butterfly and he talks with everyone but no one actually is considerate to be called his "FRIEND" .

Why is it so confusing ? Everything seems off , all of his hope to live , to shine out , to be better , to have a different and normal life is being crushed , what is happening to him ?

He was not at all interested in the lecture but he seems more concentrated on the one who is taking it . Yes , the one he always awaits just to have a glance of .

The way he clenches his jaw over every single disturbance caused by little noises , the frown arched sexily over his forehead everytime he explains a new concept , the way his body moves , his veins peeking through the rolled up sleeves . This is not it the doe eyes which sparks of anger everytime he notices a mistake of his own or when the pupils of his doe eyes shrinks whenever he is sad or when they shifts to a bigger size whenever he witnesses his favourite things.

Taehyung-ah , He snapped out of his thoughts about his teacher when a soft voice caught his attention . He turned back to meet the soft locks of his only friend after yoongi .

Yes , What happened bogum ? He asked with a calm tone still the sadness was evident in his tone , even if someone might not catch the tone his eyes spoke on behalf of him .

Nothing ! I was just thinking about taking a walk after school , will love your company . Bogum said with a softer yet questioning tone .

Urm , well you know bogum i would love to accompany you but i have tuitions so ~ Before taehyung could complete his sentence bogum interrupted "It's ok taehyung-shi i know about that i just wanted to spend a little time with you ". He said with a soft smile , with a guilty expression over his face taehyung again shifted his focus over the lecture more to the lecturer .

ITS JUST A TEENAGE ATTRACTION YOU WILL GET OVER IT . The mere thought of disappointing him came back to taehyung's mind and he immediately closed his eyes , shutting them tight not wanting to be more vulnerable in a room full of sadistic bullies.

I am sorry , i m trying , i will not let you down , i just need some time a little more . A single drop of tear slept from his eyes to his bread cheeks before it could slip on his textbook he wiped it off . Again his head hung low , sound of scribbles of the chalk over the huge blackboard was beaming in his ears .

After about 20 minutes the lecture was over as he kept all of his belongings in his bag pack and looked up slowly to find it was only him and his professor in the class , who is seated on the chair as if it is his throne flexing his well built muscles . He gulped the lump formed in his throat and stood slowly sliding the bag on his shoulder , he took slow steps towards the exit .

MR KIM , Jungkook called him in his deep tone he always uses only over him , Here we go now he will wreck my heart again with this thought taehyung averted his gaze from the floor to jungkook's face batting his eyelashes twice as if adjusting to the bright light coming from his face . Y-Yes sir ? Taehyung asked to his professor who is now standing in front of him almost towering his short and petite figure .

Mrs Kim called me yesterday , she said you are not concentrating on your studies , May i know the reason ? He asked in the same deep tone . Urm , I - i was not well lately and that is why i ~ Taehyung was interrupted by his professor . I know that MR KIM but it still doesn't justify your 20 marks in the maths test that too in mid - term . I am obliged by the rules or else ~ before jungkook could even finish taehyung cut him off .

Yes i know MR JEON what you mean , i know my well being doesn't justifies anything to anyone , even if i try my best to be the PERFECT son for my family i can never be one . I am not at all interested to be just a flex anymore , i am not at all interested to be the ALL ROUNDER son just like my cousin JEON JUNGKOOK , i am not at all interested to be the BEST in everything . I am not happy with this shit happening in my life . I am not in my right mind MR JEON . I can't do this , I can't pretend to be all OK anymore . With the last sentence slipping of his tongue he ran from the class , no he was not crying , he was just too frustrated and done with everyone seeing him as a normal boy from normal family with a normal mindset . Whereas for him nothing was normal , he was not at all ok , he needed sometime . He was only engulfed by negativity in his life .

He ran out from the university towards his house , he can't even go anywhere else if he did he will be bombarded with questions as soon as he will reach home.

He thought nothing affects anyone , he is just a mere human being in this world whose existence doesn't matters to anyone . All the memories of past flooded his mind again .

I - I LOVE YOU , it is not a prank jung~ . Before he could even complete himself a loud slap echoed in the surrounding and the tears breamed in his eyes . The person who slapped him snapped on him "You are not worth it , you are a disappointment , build yourself set up a status of your own to have him in your arms , you think it as love it is just a teenage attraction you will ~ "

NO , NO , NO , NO its not goddammit it's not any attraction , it is not , i am not attracted to him . He is my life , he owns my heart since i was a toddler . I am not just lusting over him i - i . Taehyung was again set there , knees pressed to his chest angry tears threatening to fall off from his big rounded eyes .

I am not just attracted , i -i l-love h-him . With the thought of his love and the warmth he radiates taehyung slipped off on the cold floor of his bathroom , the only place where he is heard he drifted to his dreamland which has no boundaries , where no one can control him .

But someone was still wide awake , tears flowing like a fountain from his doe eyes slipping to his cheeks, heart clenching at the thought of making his love cry , the thought of not being able to provide the warmth to his love anymore was killing him.

He was on the terrace of his house lying on the cold surface staring at the moon . His eyes conveyed everything he could not let out of his mouth ~

Nothing lies forever except the beauty of present , sorrow of past and surprises the future holds . I would love to be your venom if this satisfies you , Just know one thing my heart , my soul , my love everything only belongs to you .

Even if he wanted to he could never let it out . With that he too drifted off to sleep .

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Ok so the underlined words conveys how jungkook wants to give out the warmth to his love but still he cannot and this satisfies taehyung .It also shows how he wish to let him know that nothing lasts forever that means this hurtful feelings will also change with time .

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