Nicole's POV.
"Uhm. Are you okay?" He asked as awkwardly as ever. He earned himself a chuckle from me. Is that even a question? Does it look like i'm okay? I assumed he would know the answer for his stupid question. Maybe this idea is also stupid. I said never let anyone in.
"I know. Stupid, right? So, you want to talk about it?" No. No, I don't. I'm such an idiot. Why would I say such things to someone I have know for less than a month.
"I made a mistake. This is a bad idea. Sorry but I think you should go..." He needs to go. I don't need him.
"But you said you need so-" I do but I don't think it's you.
"I said that. Now, I'm taking it back." I said cold-heartedly.
"I'm not going. I'm not leaving you alone here. God knows what you might-" Yes you will. Everyone does.
"Yes, you're going and God doesn't know what I might do and you don't care about what I might do, Okay? Now go." I snapped. His face seemed hurt but shifted to what I think is frustration. I'm frustrating. Yeah, I've figured.
"I'm going. Sorry if me, helping you made you mad. At least I thought I was trying to help." He shouted out of frustration. You're not helping, you're making thing worse. Then he left.
Ha. I don't know but I'm seriously disgusted with myself. I'm so pathetic. My.pride wouldn't just be easily beaten. Just like my walls. The moment when someone's here for me, I let him down. I guess I will never know the feeling of care because I'm a pathetic little bitch.
A pathetic bitch that is stupid enough to let someone in so easily but turn them down right before it happen. A pathetic bitch who has a father who killed his wife. A pathetic bitch who tried but never succeed on killing herself.
"For being a pathetic bitch." My flesh was torn as the blade passes my wrist this time it was deeper. Creating a little pool of crimson blood. Then I smiled, I'm finally goint to die.
After that, I blacked out.
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A/N:
Short update but yaaay.
-Jullia xx
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