Natasha is a 19-year-old girl who has a normal life...if you count being in the mafia as normal she's a sarcastic Italian woman who would do anything for the people she cares about. ESPECIALLY her dogs don't mess with that girl and her dog's she'll...
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*2 weeks later*
It's been about 2 weeks since everything went down with Nat and I've been with her every day through it all she's slowly starting to let me be around her more every day she allows me to get a little closer to her but the max amount of time she can be in the room with me is 10 minutes. It hurts my heart that she thinks I'm going to hurt her every time I get close to her she trembles I wish I could just hug her and comfort her but I understand that she is scared were just going to have to take things slow again I've waited this long and I'll wait until my last breath if I have too as long as I get to be with her.
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It's been 2 weeks since I was sa'd by that man I've slowly started to feel better I'm still quite bruised but Vinnie has been taking really good care of me the best he can I mean I can only be in the room with him alone for 10 minutes max before I start freaking out. I'm pretty sure he hasn't worn shoes in the past 2 weeks because he knows the footsteps scare me and I really appreciate him for that he's taking his time with me and letting this happen at my pace.
I wish I could hug him and thank him but I'm just not ready yet I can only be in a 5 feet radius with any man even if it's my dad or my brother I can only be around them for so long. Xena has been sleeping with me since that night which is really comforting because she distracts me from my thoughts although they only stop for so long. Every time I close my eyes I get flashbacks and I always wake up sweating and end up crying I think that's another reason she refuses to sleep in her room.
I hate this whole situation because everyone is always keeping an eye on me I can never have 5 minutes alone and I hate it so much because I love my space but right now I just can't have it because everyone seems to I'm gonna jump off a bridge or something if I'm left alone for more then 5 minutes "hey I brought you some food" Xena says barging into the room "see what I mean it hasn't even been 10 minutes since she left the room" I sigh and look away from tv and at her and the plate she has in her hand "Xe I told you I'm not hungry" I tell her "Nat you've barley eaten anything in the past 2 weeks you have to at least try" she says setting the plate down on the bed.
"I just haven't had an appetite and I don't have one right now either" I tell her "it's not a lot of food it's just a sandwich and some fruit at least try and eat some of it okay?" she says "what kind of sandwich is it?" I ask her "I don't know I asked Mario to make you your favorite snack and that's what he gave me" she says I nod my head and just look at the food just the sight of it makes me wanna puke. "I'm just not hungry right now" I tell her pushing the plate away she just sighs and puts it on the nightstand "just try and eat when you feel like it" she says.
