My choice

Part 7

"Oh ok cool"
"Is that all your gonna say,cool. I thought you loved me Stephen , thought you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me I thought you wanted to marry me I thou-"
"For gods sake Zoe. we've been over this I want to do a lot of stuff but I can't. your jut one of those millions of things but I can't . we can't. I've accepted that and I think it's time that you accept it to."
"But Stephen there must be something I can do or you can do" my heart hurt. I felt numb it couldn't all be over
"Yeah there is" I saw hope for a slim minute. "You give up your throne"
I froze, stopped breathing. thinking over it, if it was worth it.
"Stephen you know I can't."
"You've always said that Jane would be a better queen and how you don't want to be queen. you get to kill two bird with one stone"
"Stephen just because I say things it doesn't mean I mean it legitimately."
"So what you trying to say to me Zoe that you don't love me and that all we put at risk was not real. what are my feeling just a game to you." he was shouting down the phone. I could hear the pain in his voice. I felt terrible as if I was killing without meaning it.
I loved him and I knew that but my throne, it was my whole life's work. Most of all my parents dreams.
"Steph I didn't mean it like that. I just don't want to give up the throne. I've trained all my life for this. I can't just give it all up like this not for-"
"Not for me. so I don't mean enough to you to give up your throne. does a bloody crown mean that much to you. well if u didn't realise if you marry me you'll also be queen"
Now I was angry, who did he think he is. "if you love me that much to you why don't you leave your crown"
"Because my people actually like me they want me to be their king. Unlike you."
I slammed the phone. who the hell did he think he is.
To think I loved a man who was so vain and rude.