My choice

Part 8

Today's the day my 35 suitors will arrive. my husband will walk through the large dark oak doors, and I won't know who will be my husband. but fate does and that scares me.
I've spent all my life knowing what would happen before it happened. a natural disaster I knew it would happen a least a day in advance. rebel attack, a least minute. but now I'm clueless. and that's not fun.
In a hour I will have my last dinner as a family. after that all my meal will be with these suitors.
I was scared I needed to speak to someone because fate was standing on my door step and I wasn't sure if I was ready. If I was ready to fall in love again . Stephen was rude to me but I still love him, I could never forget the memorise we made and those we planned to make.
Uncle Aspen.
I did it again I started to run, letting my soul lead me to where I had to be. uncle Aspen, mothers first love. head of security of the royal family. most of all I trusted him I knew he knew how I felt. he would know what to do. he unlike my parents knew the truth about me and Stephen.
I knocked on his door.
No answer. stupid , he he'd been In his study coordinating the security of the boys. I ran again.
This time I thought before knocking. was it worth it. some thing inside of me must of clicked because I knocked on the door.
"Come in" , his voice was soft but powerful. I knew I was doing the right thing .
"uncle Aspen?"
"Zoe my dear come in, I was just dealing with the new bo-"
"I know" I shouted and the worst thing was that I didn't realise that I was screaming and that was what I need. I need to shout I needed to scream. I needed to let it all out.
I needed to cry I was hurt. I was hurting. I was lonely in a place full of people. that was saying something but I never knew it because I didn't want it to be true. I'm so busy trying to be perfect , trying to please everyone that I forgot I had the right to live , to feel emotion....... I had the right to cry.
I had the right to hurt. I had the right to tell someone.
"I'm hurting uncle. I'm hurt so bad and it would heal. I'm bloody hurting."
I was crying I was screaming. in that moment my uncles strong arms never felt so right. I felt safe.
"Cry scream punch all you want Zoe. because I knew this was to much for you. you deserve a break"
"I'm hurting" I screamed again and again until the pain became less. but I was still hurt.
"Zoe it's time for dinner. you must go my dear put your brave face on."
"Uncle aspen would it be ok if you came and visited me after dinner. please I need you"
"Of course my bee. now off you go"

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