Does He Know?

Chapter 11

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A few days had passed since I had seen anyone other than my family. Without uni I had nothing else to do. Gavi hadn't answered any of my messages until this morning. A simple hey is what he responded to my countless of messages asking for him to forgive me. Eventually agreeing to meet with me.

We had agreed to meet in the afternoon at a cafe near my house which was usually less crowded than the city center and where we had less chances of someone spotting us. Or of someone spotting him since he was the famous one. I got up, took a shower, and put on jeans and a shirt before heading out. I arrived to the cafe at about 5 minutes to 3, sat down and ordered a drink.

A few minutes later Gavi showed up and sat in front of me. I smiled at the boy in front of me, wearing white cargo pants and an orange sweater.
-Thank you for coming.- I said offering him a smile.
He looked up at me with his big brown eyes and a slight frown on his face.

He didn't wait for me to say anything else and began to speak as his eyes locked with mine. He always spoke with the heart and I felt like shit knowing I had taken that for granted. His eyes always said what his heart felt and it made me sad that I couldn't do the same for him.

-I didn't want to be upset at you. After seeing how much he meant to you I knew there was no point in fighting for you. You were never truly mine.- He said. -But hearing him say you two had kissed messed with me. I don't want to hate my best friend.-

We sat there as silence overtook the small table we were sitting at. His eyes now fixated on his hands which were interlocked in front of him.

-I'm sorry I didn't tell you everything. Please don't be upset at him.- I finally managed to say to disrupt the awkward silence.
-I'm not. I'm upset at you.- The brown haired boy said point blank. His words took me by surprise and I felt a pit open in my stomach. I had let Gavi down and it wasn't even about what I had done but what I hadn't.

-Despite what he did, he accepted it. You didn't, Sara. How difficult would it have been to just let me hear it from your mouth instead of his?-

I looked down at the floor, he was right. After all, I was his girlfriend. I had a responsibility to him which I threw out the window the moment Pedri was in front of me. I didn't care about anyone else but the beautiful dark haired man when we were inches apart from each other.

-I'm sorry.- I mumbled.

He looked at me and smirked. That smirk that many times had meant something different, that he wanted me, that he needed to feel my lips against his. Now that smirk meant something else, it meant that an "I'm sorry" wasn't enough.

-I'll forgive you, Sara. Maybe not today, but I will, eventually.- He finally said.

-Pablo, I truly care for you.- I managed to say as I felt a knot form in my throat. It was strange. All of this time I took him for granted. His kisses, his touches. And now here I was on the verge of crying because I could see the hurt in his eyes.

-But you don't love me, not the way you love him.- He spat back. -You never said te quiero back. You wouldn't have cried the way you did if I had been the one in that hospital bed.-

-Don't say that. I care for you Pablo. Maybe not in the same way, but I do.-

We stayed there in silence, which was eventually interrupted by a waiter who came by to see if Gavi wanted to order something. He asked for a glass of water, which gave me hope that he wasn't going to storm out of the cafe in a few seconds. I felt the need to close this chapter in the proper way. Even if I had done everything wrong leading to this moment.

He took a sip of his water. -Well, have you talked to him?- He asked.

I shook my head in silence.

-You're telling me I got my heart broken so that you don't even end up together?- He said in a slightly playful way which caused me to smile at him.

-I was rude to him, I yelled at him while he was in a hospital bed. And he has Alice.-

Gavi scoffed. -Alice is nothing for him. I know him, he's in love with you and I can't believe I didn't see it sooner. I'm sure he wants nothing more than to see you.-

-Have you seen him?- I asked knowing Pedri had been ordered to stay away from practice for a few days. Gavi nodded. -I went to see him yesterday. He's better. We didn't talk about you.-

Despite Gavi speaking with me about Pedri, I knew deep down he was still hurt and rightfully so. I knew it would take a lot of work and patience for us to be friends, something we never truly were since we began to date so soon after meeting each other. But I was willing to work on it.

His words kept on replaying in head as I was heading home. I'm sure he wants nothing more than to see you. With a quick rush of courage I began to drive towards Pedri's house instead of my own. I knew where he lived thanks to Val but had never been there. I parked in front of the building and brought my mirror down to fix my makeup. Thankfully I hadn't spent the last few days crying so my eyes weren't puffy.  It was more like I was numb. I couldn't cry, but I also couldn't laugh. Nothing made sense.

I grabbed my purse and began to walk up to his door. I knocked, once, twice and heard footsteps approaching. My heart began to race, I could feel my heartbeat in the palm of my hands which were beginning to sweat at the sheer anticipation of seeing Pedri. In the few seconds that it took for the door to open in front of me a million scenarios played through my mind. What if it was his brother who opened, what if he had people over, what if Alice opened?

The door opened and I was met with brown eyes that showed a hint of light and surprise when they saw me standing there in front of him.

-Sara.- He said.

I felt my eyes begin to get teary eyed and I could hardly say anything. -Pedri, I...-

But before I could continue he took a few steps forward and I felt as his lips crashed against mine. His lips took mine in and he left a feverish kiss against me. We both opened our eyes and looked at each other's seconds before he went in again. He pushed me against the wall that faced his front door and I felt his warm body hit mine. His body so close that I could feel his accelerated heartbeat against my chest. My hands went to the back of his head as his hands rested on my waist. His lips on mine, his kisses felt like home. It was where I belonged, there in his mouth. Every movement his lips made against mine made me realize I was starving, his kisses burned me alive. Maybe I didn't know before but I knew now, Pedri was the person I had been waiting for forever. He kissed me in the same desperate way that I did. He slightly parted his lips and caught my lower lips in between. His lips were soft and fit mine perfectly, as if they had been made for each other. Our tongues seemed to dance a beautiful love song. After all of these days of not seeing him or talking to him it was surreal that now I had him in front of me and we were kissing. Our kisses went from desperate to slow, both still with fear but in the most beautiful way possible. His kisses ate the moan I couldn't control when he pressed his body even more against mine, now my body in between him and the cold wall. I kissed him like my life depended on it, because in a way it did. He kissed me like it was the first time, and the last, every time.

It was then that I heard a woman's voice from inside Pedri's house.

-Pedri, who is it?-

The voice took Pedri out of his trance, he stopped his attack on my lips and before I knew it he pulled away from me. He walked backwards leaving me out in the hallway.

-Pedri?- The voice said again, I could hear it was getting closer. Pedri stood there, his chest heaved as he tried to catch his breathe. His lips swollen from my kisses. He took his right hand and with his thumb cleaned off around his lips.

-Its nobody.- He said as he stood there, our eyes locked with each other, and with his left hand managed to slam the door in between us.

My heart dropped and I felt tears fall down my face as the door shut in front of me. I knew I deserved it, but it didn't make it any less painful.