art || hwang hyunjin

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"hyunjin?"

i couldn't believe it, hyunjin is debuting with them? that's why the company sounded so familiar. it was the company he went to be a trainee

"w-what are you doing here?" he asked

"oh you met hyunjin!" jeongin coming towards us "hyunjin this is soomi soomi this is hyunjin" jeongin said smiling while hyunjin and i just stared at eachother

"oh shit" felix said coming in "hey hyunjin i need help with a dance move mind helping me?"

hyunjin didn't move and neither did i, how badly i just wanted to yell at him, at everyone for not telling me he was here

i walked out of the dorms without saying a word to anyone and just kept walking, there was a lump in my throat that wouldn't go away, i wanted to scream so loud but i couldn't, nothing came out

i sat on a bench and just thought about what just happened. i should've known he was debuting with them, i scoffed from my thinking when a figure sat down next to me "i'm sorry i didn't tell you"

"you've been training with him for 2 years and never told me minho? why?" i said with my voice cracking

"he told me not to" he said

"WHO CARES WHAT HE SAYS IM YOUR SISTER" i said with tears forming in my eyes "i'm your sister" i said quietly

"i know i'm sorry, he still cares about you tho" he said and i chuckled

"oh really? then why did he never answer my calls, or my texts, and why didn't he tell me he was leaving, bullshit minho bullshit" i scoffed

"he can explain everything to you i cant speak for him but he really does care deeply about you" he said

"whatever, can we just go back i'm cold" i said as we walked back to their dorm

we walked in and the first person i saw was hyunjin "sooms can we talk? please?"

"don't call me sooms hyunjin. and no" i said walking passed him

"sweetie you ok?" my mom asked and i nodded

i was fidgeting with my ring i had on and just remembered that it was the promise ring hyunjin gave me, i looked at it for a while and remembered what he told me "promise you'll be waiting for me? that you'll always come back to me no matter what"
i sighed

"soomi...." hyunjin said softly "just for a minute please" he said and i sighed

"what?" i said looking up at him as he signaled me to follow him

i got up and we walked to his room as we sat on his bed having a distance "your minute starts now"

"i'm sorry, i'm so so sorry i left without telling you where i was going, i didn't we t to see you cry i didn't want to cry, when i found out i got into JYP i was so happy and was so excited to tell you when they told me if i had a girlfriend i had to distance myself from you and hace nothing to do with you. i really really didn't want to do it but sooms you know dancing is literally my world. i regret not telling you and i'm so sorry. i was forced basically to not have any contact with you which why i didn't answer any of your calls or texts, i didn't do it just because, i never not thought about you, you were all i was thinking about" he said coming closer to me "i wouldn't sleep at night because of how guilty i felt leaving you, i wanted so badly to call you but i couldn't, the only thing keeping me going was our pictures we took on my phone." hyunjin never left his eyes off of me "please you have to believe me, i love you sooms"

i so badly wanted to hug him and tell him i loved him too but my anger just wanted to slap him and yell at him. it's been two years who wouldn't be mad? "yeah i stopped loving you a long time ago" i lied. i got up from his bed about to walk out when he grabbed my wrist

"you promised, you promised you would always come back no matter what sooms" he said with teary eyes

lord help me

"that was two years ago hyunjin, people change" i said getting out of his grip and walking out even though i wanted to go in there and hug him so bad i just couldn't

"mom i'm tired can we go?" i asked and she nodded

"yeah of course, let me just go to the restroom really quick" she said as i nodded and waited outside the dorm for her

the door open and i looked thinking it was my mom but it was hyunjin ugh why won't he leave me alone "hyunjin leave me alone already" i said rolling my eyes

"look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me anymore" he said which shocked me

"what?" i asked

"i said look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me. and i'll leave you alone" he said and i sighed

i looked into his brown eyes seeing his mole under his eye, i didn't want to say it, but i had to "i don't love you" i lied. breaking my own heart

"fine, by the way keep the promise ring, it's a gift" he said pointing at my finger and walking back inside