Telegraph Ave: Final Chapter

Chapter 8: Lament

Candace's POV...

For the remainder of the night, I struggle to fall asleep.

Stacy's party didn't end until after midnight, and afterwards the streets proceeded back into its quiet state. The moon fails to sing me a lullaby, as sit in the darkness of my room with its light being the only source.

My heart continues to ache, and my brain search for the smallest citation of peace—but it can't be found. My mental is in a constant state of ringing, and it's not because I'm heartbroken over love.

Truth is, I was disconnected from Benjamin after 2 months of being long distance. From then on he was only a distraction. A diversion where I could mask my true feelings for someone else, and forget for only small moment that they were even there. In the end, it only blew right back up in my face and I can no longer pretend they're not there, when they are.

My eyes are closed and I lie in a fetal position along my cold sheets.

The longer my eyes remained closed, the more I reminisce. I cry because I can't help but to reminisce. It's almost as if I lose control, and fall vulnerable to the roaring flashbacks.

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"You're Xavier right?" I walked up one step, and my height matched where he saton the stairs

"Yeah" He responds.

I smiled, and felt warm for the first time ever towards a boy. I muster up the courage to complement him. "You're cute."

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I open my eyes immediately, and that snake swirls within my stomach. My heart beats at a rapid pace, and I clinch my fist and fold my legs together. I take breathes and exhale slowly, while temptation whispered in my ears. Tossing and turning, I fight to resist the allurement but it retains me in it's shackle.

Where did I go wrong?...

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"Well, I'm single and I definitely find him attractive." I respond to Claudia, smiling with no shame. "But I feel like he'll be more of a friend than anything else though, is that weird? Besides my personality might scare him."

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I smack myself on the forehead in disgust. Why did I say that?... I think to myself, with the serpent still attempting to break in between my legs. How was I suppose to know I was going to develop feelings for him?

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"You just gonna stand there?" Claudia asked as he stood with the chair in his hand.

"I think I rather stand." He replies.

"Pull up your chair... I won't bite." I eye balled him head to toe. "Like I said, you're not on my bad side."

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Besides, it's too late now.

On the contrary that's not a bad thing, for he's with my sister. It sucks because I felt it in my gut.

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"X... are you okay?" Stacy asks him for the second time. While I glanced over his shoulder, even I could feel her eyes penetrating his essence.